Could It Be Too Late

This is a new fiction titled that SueEllen & JR 4Ever and I are starting, “Could it be too late.” To set the scene, JR is trying to give Sue Ellen the maternity ring he bought for her after John Ross was born. Hope you enjoy.

“JR you bought me once, but I am no longer for sale,” Sue Ellen said, rising from the lounge chair. JR closed the box, watching her walk away from him. He glanced over at his family who were pretending they hadn’t seen and heard what had taken place.

“That’s it,” he thought. “I’ve had all of this I’m gonna take.” He stood up and hurried upstairs after her. He flung open the bedroom door, “What the hell is wrong with you woman? Can’t you see I’m trying to be the man you want?”

Sue Ellen laughed uncontrollably as JR just looked at her like she was crazy. Finally, she stopped laughing and looked at him. “You know JR, I think something is wrong with me. I think I’ve overstayed my welcome at Southfork.” She walked over to the closet and pulled out a suitcase, laying it on the bed. She opened it and began packing some of her things. “I think it’s time you got exactly what you wanted. You’ve got your precious Ewing heir, at least that’s what your Momma and Daddy think. And I’ve realized that I don’t need you, so you can have all the other women you want.”

“What the hell are you doing? You’re not goin’ anywhere.”

“You’re right JR. As long as I stay with you, I’m not goin’ anywhere. So I’m leavin.”

“You walk out that door, honey and you’ll never see your son again. I guarantee it,” he said angrily.

“You can have your son, if he is your son. You can have your money, your other women, Ewing Oil, and Southfork. I’ll live in the street if I have to, cause it’s better than living with you,” she said closing the suitcase and storming furiously out of the room, leaving JR stunned and fuming, unsure of what he wanted to do.

Sue Ellen carried her suitcase downstairs to the cab and JR watched from the upstairs balcony, his heart secretly sinking as it disappeared from sight. “She’ll be back,” he told himself.

Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

The taxi pulled to a stop in front of Patricia’s Townhouse. Sue Ellen took a deep breath, paid the fare, and step onto the sidewalk. She entered her mother’s home, carrying her suitcase. “Hello mother,” she said coldly.

“Sue Ellen what are you doing?”

“Sit down mother and listen mother.” Patricia looked at her daughter, but silently obeyed. “Mother, I’ve had it. I have had it with his lying, cheating, conniving ways and I’m not putting up with it anymore. Now you can either support me and let me stay here while I sort things out and get on my feet, or I’ll go somewhere else.”

“But….but what about John Ross,” Patricia asked?

“Well,” she hesitated, “I’d like to have brought him with me, but he’s better off at Southfork and JR would never have given us a minute’s peace if I’d tried to take him.”

“What are you gonna do,” Patricia asked?

“I spoke with a friend from college the other day whose the head of a modeling agency. He offered me a job and I took it. I have to be at his office tomorrow morning. Now mother, if you don’t mind, I’m exhausted and I’d like to rest for a while. I come down in a little while and help you with dinner.”

“Alright Sue Ellen,” Patricia said, watching Sue Ellen disappear up the stairs.

The next day, Clayton's Modeling Agency

Sue Ellen walked into the reception area of the modeling agency. “Hi,” she smiled, “I have an appointment with David Clayton.

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The receptionist glanced at her appointment calendar, “You must be Sue Ellen Shepard.”

“Yes,” Sue Ellen replied.

“Have a seat, and I’ll let him know you are here,” she said disappearing into the office. Seconds later, David appeared.

“Hi, Sue Ellen,” he smiled charmingly. Sue Ellen stood and walked toward him. “Come on in and we can talk,” he said placing his hand on the small of her back.

They entered the office, and David closed the door. “Have a seat. Would you like some coffee or something,” he smiled again. Sue Ellen sat on the sofa, crossed her legs and replied, “No thank you.”

“Damn,” he thought as he watched her knee length skirt slip up her sexy, tanned legs, “those are the most luscious legs I have ever seen.” Regaining control of his thoughts, he sat down beside her and said, “I am so glad you decided to accept my offer.”

“Well, I never was very good at resisting your charm,” she flirted.

“Oh really,” he said raising his eyebrows. “If I’d known that, I would have asked you out instead of your roommate,” he flirted back, smiling seductively.

Sue Ellen shifted her legs, keenly aware of their attraction to one another. He stared at her legs as they shifted, imagining sliding his hand up them and under her skirt. Beginning to feel his desire for her growing, he walked over to the desk, and shuffled through some papers. Clearing his throat, he said, “The first thing we need to do is get you a portfolio. Once we do that, I am completely certain that companies will be knockin themselves out to get you as their spokesperson.”

“Wonderful,” she replied. “How do I get the portfolio?”

“I have a photographer and a studio already lined up. As a matter of fact,” he said glancing at his watch, “we’d better get goin or we’re gonna be late.” He held out his hand to her and helped her off of the sofa. As their hands touched, a wave of electricity pulsated throughout both of their bodies.

They made it to the photographer’s studio just in time. The photographer spent an hour photographing Sue Ellen in a variety of poses.

“I’ll have these ready in a few days” he said

“That would be great” David said as he and Sue Ellen walked out of the studio.

They got in David’s car and started the drive back to his office.

“So” Sue Ellen said “What sort of modeling jobs do you think I’ll be able to get!”

David smiled “With a body like yours, you can do anything but everyone has to start at the bottom” he said

“What do you mean?” Sue Ellen asked

“Let’s just say your first few jobs could be dong advertisements for things like toothpaste, but after a couple of months we’ll move on” David replied

“Toothpaste!” Sue Ellen exclaimed, raising her eyebrows.

David laughed, looking at her he realized she was too damn sexy for modeling toothpaste. God this was going to be so tough being close to her, he suddenly realized that he wanted her more than he ever wanted anyone else. She was beautiful, warm and so sexy. He felt himself harden as he thought of what he would like to do with her.

“Hey, are you doing anything tonight” David asked

“Are you asking me out on a date?” Sue Ellen asked

“Sorry I didn’t mean to say that!” David said

Sue Ellen looked at him “Sure you did and I would be happy to go out with you” she said “Pick me up at my mother’s at 7.30 pm.

After arriving at David’s office Sue Ellen thanked him and walked back to her car. David watched her as she walked, thinking about how much he was going to enjoy his evening.

Southfork

JR was home early, he couldn’t keep his mind on his work and wasn’t really interested in staying at the office. On arriving home he saw Miss Ellie.

“Hello JR” she said “You’re home early”

“I know momma” he replied “Has Sue Ellen called?”
“No” Miss Ellie said “I can’t believe she left you and John Ross”

JR didn’t say anything “Momma, if you’ll excuse me I have a few telephone calls to make” he said as he started walking up the stairs.

He was just about to walk into his bedroom when he heard crying coming from the Nursery.

“Damn” he thought “What does someone have to do to get some peace and quiet around here”

He walked into the Nursery and stared at the crying baby. He was so small and fragile but JR realized that he felt nothing for this child. It wasn’t his, how could he tell his mother and father that he didn’t have an heir, this was Cliff’s son.

“John Ross, your momma has gone” he said “So you’re going to have to get used to that”

The baby’s crying eased at the sound of his voice, JR looked down at him “Whose son are you, John Ross” he said softly.

Pam had been in her room when she heard the baby’s cries. She heard JR go into the nursery but still the baby was crying. Walking out of her bedroom she reached the door of the nursery and saw JR standing there.

“JR pick up the baby!” she said “That’s the only way to stop him crying”

JR glared at her “You do it!” he said and stormed out of the room.

Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen arrived home and called to her mother

“Hi momma I’m home” she said

“Hi darlin’” her mother replied “How did it go”

“Fine” Sue Ellen replied “Oh by the way I won’t be having dinner here tonight I’m going out”

“Out with who?” Patricia asked “Don’t tell me you and JR have sorted things out”

Sue Ellen laughed “That will be the day” she said “No I’ve got a date with David”

“Sue Ellen, you’ve only just left your husband” Patricia said “Is this a good idea”

“Momma it’s only dinner and beside JR and I are finished” Sue Ellen replied “Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to get ready”

Patricia watched her daughter go upstairs. She realized that now that Sue Ellen had left Southfork she would never get to know her grandson.

A Dallas restaurant

Sue Ellen and David waited for their meal to arrive. David looked at Sue Ellen, she looked beautiful.

“So” David said “Is your marriage really over?”

Sue Ellen stared into her drink and sighed “Yes, it is” she said “There’s no going back!”

“What happened?” he asked “You don’t have to tell me but I’m here if you need a friend”

Sue Ellen smiled “Come on, you didn’t ask me on a date so that I could talk about my failed marriage” she said

“I just get the impression you could do with a friend” he said

Sue Ellen was quiet for a while and then taking a huge breath she began to speak “I met JR during a beauty contest I entered, he was one of the judges. In the beginning he was so warm and loving and I fell deeply in love with him. However after we were married he became distant, stayed away at night, came home smelling of another woman’s perfume, these past few years we hardly ever made love” she said

“But you’ve just had a baby” David said

“Yes I know but maybe he’s the result of one night of sex when JR couldn’t find it anywhere else or he’s the result of an affair I had with JR’s arch enemy” Sue Ellen said

“You cheated on JR” David said

“Yes, well after seven years of being cheated on and made to feel worthless I needed someone to love me” Sue Ellen said “Only trouble was I chose the wrong man, once JR found out and threatened Cliff the affair was over” she said

“So you don’t know who your baby’s father is?” David asked

Sue Ellen smiled “No, JR doesn’t know who the father is but I do, you see he has JR’s eyes only JR can’t see that!” she said

“How can you leave your baby?” David said

Sue Ellen couldn’t replied, she didn’t have an answer for that as she was asking herself the same question. Soon afterwards their food arrived and they began eating occasionally talking about his plans for her modeling career. After they had finished their meal Sue Ellen noticed the music playing.

“David dance with me” Sue Ellen said

David got out of his chair and reached for her hand. They walked towards the dance floor. Sue Ellen put her arms around his neck as he held her by the waist. Slowly they began to move. Sue Ellen closed her eyes and held him even tighter, she suddenly realized that this had been the first time in a long time that she had felt like a real person and not one of JR Ewing’s possessions. She was in the arms of someone who wanted her for herself and not just to get back at JR. They continued dancing. David loved the feel of her body right next to his and hoped one day he would be able to take this relationship further, he wanted to wake up with her, make love to her all night long, let her experience the love that he knew she had been denied for so long. He knew he could make her happy but he also knew he had to give her time. Finally as the song ended the couple broke away and still holding hands walked back to their table. Looking at her watch Sue Ellen realized that it was getting late.

“David it’s been a wonderful evening but I think it’s time to go” she said

David looked at her and smiled “Okay but promise me we’ll do this again some day”

“Okay” Sue Ellen smiled

David paid the bill and then drove Sue Ellen home.

Southfork

JR sat on his bed with his head in his hands trying to block out the sound of the baby’s crying. He picked his head up and looked around the room, his eyes drifted to the picture of Sue Ellen that was on the dressing table. He felt tears in his eyes. He remembered the night of John Ross’s birth and how he had sat by Sue Ellen’s bedside pleading with her to wake up, praying for her to live. Now his worst fears had come true, she had left him. He thought back to how he had mistreated her over the years and realized that he didn’t blame her but he did love her he just couldn’t express it. Now he had lost his yellow rose of Texas and he felt empty.

Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen arrived home to find Patricia waiting for her

“Hey momma this is just like old times, you waiting up for me” Sue Ellen said

“Did you have a good time” Patricia asked

“Yes I did” Sue Ellen said. She then sat down and placed her head in her hands.

“Sue Ellen, what’s wrong?” Patricia asked

“Momma I need my baby” she cried

“I thought you said it was best he stayed at Southfork” Patricia said

“Momma I know what I said but I can’t do it, I want him here with me” Sue Ellen said with tears in her eyes “He’s only a month old I want custody of him”

“You know you’ll have to fight the Ewings for that” Patricia said “JR wont give him up without a fight”

“Momma will you help me?” Sue Ellen asked

“Are you sure you want to be a single mother?” Patricia asked “There’s no hope for you and JR”

Sue Ellen sadly shook her head “Momma, JR and I are finished. I can’t take his cheating on me anymore. He doesn’t love me, I’m just one of his possessions” she said

“Okay, if you want John Ross then I’m with you every step of the way but it won’t be easy” Patricia said

“I know momma, but I have to have my baby!” Sue Ellen said “It’s getting late I’m going to bed”

“Night Sue Ellen” Patricia said and hugged her tightly.

Sue Ellen’s room

After getting undressed Sue Ellen lay quietly in bed. She really had enjoyed her evening; at last someone had treated her like a human being and made her feel wanted but part of her ached. She hated to admit it but part of her ached for JR, she longed to have the man she first met, the man who had showered her with love and affection not the cold cruel man he had become after they had married. However she knew there was no going back, JR was JR and if she stayed with him things would get worse, but she knew that she needed her son, she had thought it would be so easy to walk out on him but she had been proved wrong. She buried her head in the pillow and cried.

Southfork

JR finally crawled out of the bed at 4:00am. He tossed and turned since 10:00pm the night before. The bed looked like a dog had rooted around in it. He sighed disgustedly and headed for the shower. He removed his pajamas, and climbed into the shower. He turned on the water and let it wash over his body. He closed his eyes to wet his hair, and imagined Sue Ellen sneaking in with him, like she’d done on their honeymoon. He sank down to the floor of the shower, and pulled his knees to his chest, burying his head. His body convulsed violently with tears. It was several minutes, before he angrily stood to his feet, slinging his hand across his face to wipe away his tears. “No way, as God is my witness, there is no way she’s gonna get away with this. I am JR Ewing. Nobody crosses me and gets away with it,” he said through gritted teeth. He completed his shower, dressed and stormed out of the house.

Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen walked out the front door, to the waiting taxi. She had a full day planned. First, a visit to the divorce attorney and then she had a photo shoot. David said he’d meet her there and afterward, he’d take her home.

She reached the lawyer’s office, and climbed out of the taxi. She took a deep breath before entering the building. “Is this really what you want Sue Ellen,” she asked herself out loud, looking down at the sidewalk. Suddenly her thoughts were interrupted.

“Sue Ellen,”

She looked up from the sidewalk. “JR,” she said with surprise.

Grabbing her arm and pulling her forcefully toward his Mercedes, he said, “We need to have a little chat, darlin’.”

“About what,” she said angrily pulling out of his grip?

“About us,” he said calmly, “and your son.”

“There is no us, anymore JR. There hasn’t been for a long, long time. And as for John Ross, I…” she hesitated not wanting to reveal too much, “told you that you could have him. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have an appointment.”

“Sue Ellen we are not finished talking,” he said grabbing her arm again and looking deep into her eyes.

Sue Ellen saw the tremendous pain in his eyes and looked away. “Damn those eyes,” she thought. “Just don’t look into them. If you don’t look into them, you can keep it together.” “Yes we are JR. You haven’t wanted to talk to me in at least six years, so what is so important now. Did all your other women finally wise up and kick you to the curb too?”

JR looked at the sidewalk. “I deserve that,” he thought. He looked up as she turned to walk away.

“Goodbye JR, I’m no longer your possession. I’ve been sold for a Ewing heir, and countless whores.”

Though he knew she spoke the truth, her last comment made him see red, and he grabbed her and pushed her closer to the car. “Get in that damn car right this minute, or I swear you’ll regret the day you ever met me.”

Once again, she managed to escape his grasp, and moving quickly away, said, “I already regret the day I met you.”

JR stood stunned as he watched her disappear into the lawyers office.

JR stalked toward his office, ignoring Louella and the other secretaries, who exchanged interested glance. He entered his office, closed the door behind him, hung his hat on the rack, and walked over to the liquor cabinet. Even though it was only 9:00am, he poured himself a bourbon straight and down it. Pouring himself another, he walked over to the desk to try and get some work done.

JR’s office door opened and Jock walked inside. “JR, I want to talk to you.”

“Sure Dad, what is it?”

“It’s about your wife.”

“Dad, I….”

“Just shut up and listen JR. Now I know how much you’ve always enjoyed havin a good time, and I never begrudged you that. Hell I did plenty of wild things when I was young, but you have a son now. A son who needs his momma. It’s time you got your act together and brought that wife of yours home where she belongs. Do you understand me?”

“But Dad, I..”

“I don’t want any excuses JR. I just want you to bring my grandson’s mother home and I want the three of you to be one big happy family. You got it.”

“Yes sir,” JR replied, “I’m already workin’ on it sir.”

“Good, cause if a man can’t handle his family, then he sure as hell can’t handle a multi-million dollar company,” Jock said walking out of the room.

JR just sank back into his chair, and rested his face in his hands, sighing in frustration.

Lawyer’s office

“So, Mr. Thompson, that’s the whole sordid story,” Sue Ellen said as she finished relaying her life with JR.

“I see,” he replied. “And you say that your son is at Southfork now.”

“Yes.”

“Well, if you want custody, my suggestion would be for you to get him away from there and living with you as soon as possible. As for the divorce, do you think your husband is going to contest it also?”

“Is the sky blue on a sunny day,” she asked sarcastically. “JR doesn’t give up what he wants easily.”

“Are you prepared to air that story you just told me in public, because that’s exactly what will happen if you go through with this?”

“Yes,” she replied. “I have to get myself and my son away from him for good,” she continued, forcing back her emotions.

“All right then,” he said. “It’ll take some time to get the papers ready and we’ll have to do an assessment of you and your husbands property and holdings to determine a settlement, but we can do that fairly easily, based on what you say you want. So, you can probably expect the papers to be ready for you signature by the end of next week.”

“Thank you Mr. Thompson,” Sue Ellen said shaking his hand as she rose to her feet.

“Your welcome, Mrs. Ewing. I’ll have my secretary call you when the papers are ready.”

Sue Ellen nodded and disappeared out of the building, hurrying toward her modeling session.

Sue Ellen enjoyed her modeling assignment even though as David had warned her she was only doing an advert for toothpaste. As she came out of the building she looked at her watch, 1.00pm, she thought for a second. JR would still be at work and Southfork may be empty. Her lawyer had told her that she had to get John Ross away from Southfork and that is what she intended to do. David was waiting was waiting for her as promised. She got into his car.

“Hi” he said “How was it?”

“Fine” she laughed “Well as good as it could be with modeling toothpaste”

“We’ve all got to start somewhere Sue Ellen” he said “And you my darlin’ are heading for great things”

Sue Ellen smiled. David looked at her “So how was it at the divorce lawyers” David asked

“He said he will have the papers drawn up by the end of next week” Sue Ellen replied “he also said I need to get John Ross away from Southfork”

“JR is going to go mad” David said

“I know but I have to have my baby” Sue Ellen said “David can I borrow your car this afternoon I need to go to Southfork”

“Alone” David asked

“Yes” Sue Ellen said “JR will be at the office”

“Okay, let’s drive back to the office and you can use it after that” David said “But promise me you’ll call me if you need me”

“I promise” Sue Ellen said

They drove in silent back to the office. After David got out of the car, Sue Ellen got into the driver’s seat and turned the ignition. She gave a deep sigh, this was going to be harder than she ever thought it would be. She had seen the pain in JR’s eyes, the same pain she had seen so many times when Jock showed how much he preferred Bobby to JR. But she knew this was something to had to do, she thought back to the time she had drunk herself to oblivion during her pregnancy to try and blank out the rejection she felt. If she stayed with JR, her life would continue to go downhill. How could she feel such hatred towards JR in one moment and yet know that she would truly love only ever him, he was the love of her life She put the car into drive and started her journey.

Southfork

Driving through the gates of Southfork Sue Ellen felt her body tremble and could hear the pounding of her heart. She got out of the car and headed towards the porch. Miss Ellie had seen her drive up and was waiting for her.

“Hello Sue Ellen” Miss Ellie said

“Hello” Sue Ellen said

“What’s going on with you and JR?” Miss Ellie asked

“I’m leaving him for good” Sue Ellen said “I’m tired of this sham of a marriage. JR doesn’t love me I’m just one of his many possessions”

“Sue Ellen what about John Ross, he needs both parents” Miss Ellie said

“John Ross will be fine, I will give him everything he needs” Sue Ellen said

“You’ve come to take him haven’t you?” Miss Ellie asked

“Yes, our marriage is over but I’m not going to let another Ewing grandchild be brought up away from his mother” Sue Ellen said “Please don’t stop me”

Miss Ellie was silent for a while. She knew how much pain JR had put Sue Ellen through and she also knew that John Ross needed his mother. “Okay, Sue Ellen I wont stop you but just remember that JR will want his son back so don’t be surprise if he’s not beating down your door to get him” she said

“I can handle JR.” Sue Ellen said

Miss Ellie let Sue Ellen walk into the house. Sue Ellen walked through the hallway and up the stairs. She looked around her and realized how many memories this place held for her. She remembered falling down the stairs while she was pregnant with John Ross, the pain of so many nights spent alone because JR was in the arms of another woman instead of where he should have been. She walked into her and JR’s room; she looked on the dressing table and saw her picture. JR still had it there he hadn’t thrown it out, she sat on the bed. She felt the tears form in her eyes and tried to push her emotions aside. All she had ever wanted was JR to love her and only her but he couldn’t do that. Slowly she got up and went to the head of the bed, something made her pick up JR’s pillow and she pressed it against her breathing in his smell. She thought back to the good times before they were married, the times in the treehouse where they would talk for ages about nothing in particular. JR told her he felt safe talking to her and that he had told her things that he had never told anyone else. He made her feel so special. She remembered how he brought her a horse and taught her to ride, hours they would spend riding around the pastures. The excitement she felt whenever he touched or kissed her and how he used to call her his yellow rose of texas. She looked at the bedside clock and realized she had to be quick. Reluctantly she left their room and walked into the nursery. She looked into the crib and saw her sleeping child.

“Oh, John Ross” She said “Where did I go wrong, I truly love your father but I wasn’t enough for him”

She started to collect his things together and found a bag to put them in, and then very gently she picked up the baby. Suddenly the baby opened his eyes and looked at her, she immediately saw JR, from the moment she first saw him she knew who his father was and yet JR couldn’t see it, he was too consumed with his hatred for Cliff and fearing that Jock might find out that he didn’t have an heir that he failed to see the truth, that this was his baby, his and Sue Ellen’s. Sue Ellen kissed John Ross’s forehead and carried him downstairs. On leaving she said goodbye to Miss Ellie and strapped the baby’s carrycot into the car. She looked around the ranch for one last time then taking a deep breath got back into the car. After arriving back at David’s office she parked the car and took the baby out of his carrycot, she then climbed the stairs to David’s office.

“How was it?” he asked

“Awful” she said

“Was JR there?” he asked

“No, but that place holds so many memories and not all of them bad” Sue Ellen replied. Suddenly the baby awoke and started crying.

“David can you take me home please, I need to feed and change him” Sue Ellen asked

“Sure” he said and they walked out of the office into the car. Once again they drove in silence. As they reached Patricia’s house, David turned to Sue Ellen and said

“I don’t suppose I can see you tonight?”

“Sorry David, I need to get to know my son, beside I’m sure JR will be calling and I don’t want to leave momma alone” Sue Ellen said

“Call me if you need me” he said

Sue Ellen smiled and kissed him on the cheek “Thank you for being such a good friend” she said

Southfork later that day

JR and Jock’s arrival home was greeted by Miss Ellie in tears.

“What happened?” Jock asked

“Sue Ellen came” Miss Ellie said “She’s taken John Ross”

JR froze, she really did mean it she wasn’t coming back.

“JR, you’ve got to get them back!” Jock said “I want my grandson here!”

JR ignored his father’s remarks and went upstairs. He felt his heart was breaking he had never experienced this feeling before. He knew John Ross wasn’t his son but he would have been prepared to bring him up as his as long as he had Sue Ellen. His thoughts turned to the past, remembering the long walks they used to enjoy together, she had been the only person who had truly love him for himself, he knew his daddy had always preferred Bobby, JR had just been his heir and business partner but Bobby could do anything he like, his father had even built that damn treehouse for Bobby, JR would have given up everything for his father to love him like that. His momma had Gary, poor wimpy Gary who was so scared of daddy that he spent most of his childhood cowering behind his momma. Sue Ellen had been different, at last he had found someone who truly loved him, and she actually listened to what he was saying and seemed genuinely interested. Now due to his own stupidity she was gone. He sat on his bed and once again he cried.

After a while he composed himself and went back downstairs. His momma and daddy were in the den.

“JR what are you going to do!” his father demanded

JR looked at him “I don’t know” he said

“Is your marriage over?” his father asked

JR turned his back as he felt the tears stinging his eyes “Yes” he said

“Then you have to fight Sue Ellen for custody of John Ross” Jock said “He’s a Ewing he belongs with us not her”

JR sighed, if only they knew the truth. John Ross wasn’t a Ewing he was a Barnes, Sue Ellen’s bastard child.

“JR we can get the best lawyers on the case, she wont stand a chance” Jock said

JR didn’t want this, he didn’t want to hurt Sue Ellen anymore than he had, he just wanted her back to start again and love her like he should have. He turned and left the room.

Patricia Shepard’s townhouse

Sue Ellen watched her sleeping son, totally unaware of his surrounding and events going on around him. She remembered how she felt after he was born, not wanting to go to visit him in the hospital, scared of loving him because of the way she had been hurt by his father. Now all she felt was an overwhelming sense of love and the need to protect him. He was all she had left of JR and she hoped that he would grow up to be happy and know that he was loved unlike his father. She almost understood JR’s problem, he had never really been shown love therefore he couldn’t express it, but she had done everything in her power to show him how much she loved him, that to her he was the most important thing in the world, but JR had thrown it back in her face. She cursed herself for still having feelings for JR and for being unable to stop thinking about him. Her thoughts were interrupted by her mother.

“Sue Ellen, dinner’s nearly ready” Patricia said

“Thanks momma, I’m just trying to get the baby settled” she replied

Patricia looked at the baby in the cot “He’s beautiful, Sue Ellen”

Sue Ellen felt her heart burst with pride “I know” she said “Momma I couldn’t leave him at Southfork”

“Of course not!” Patricia said “I’m just worried about what JR is going to do”

“Momma I can handle JR” Sue Ellen said

They went downstairs and had something to eat. Sue Ellen wasn’t really hungry and played with her food.

“Sue Ellen you need to eat to keep up your strength” Patricia said

Sue Ellen put her head in her hands and cried. Patricia walked around the table and put her arms around her daughter. “Where did I go wrong momma” Sue Ellen said “I loved him so much, he was all I ever wanted”

“You can go back if you want to” Patricia said “It’s not too late”

“Yes it is momma, JR doesn’t love me our marriage is a sham” Sue Ellen said “JR and I haven’t made love in years, John Ross was conceived during one act of sex when JR couldn’t find it anywhere else”

“Then move on Sue Ellen, build a new life for you and your son” Patricia said “You’re still young, find someone who will really love you”

Sue Ellen dried her tears and kissed her mother. They then went back to eating their meal.

A few hours later there was a knock at the door. Patricia looked out of the window.

“Oh my God Sue Ellen it’s JR!” she called

Sue Ellen felt her heart jumped as she hurried downstairs “Momma go upstairs and see to John Ross please, let me handle this” she said

Her mother did what Sue Ellen had asked. After she heard her mother enter John Ross’ room she opened the door.

“What do you want?” she asked

“We need to talk” JR said

“I’ve told you before there is nothing left to talk about” Sue Ellen said “You want to talk go and find one of your little whores, or aren’t they capable of that!”

“My parents want me to bring John Ross home where he belongs” JR said

“Your parents, not you” Sue Ellen said “You don’t give a damn about that child”

“Why should I he’s not mine” JR said

“JR, he’s staying with me whether your parents like it or not” Sue Ellen said

“We’ll fight you through every court in this land” JR said “Daddy believes he’s a Ewing and he belongs at Southfork”

“You do that JR, and I will demand a paternity test ”Sue Ellen said“ How you are going to explain to your precious father then that the child he named isn’t his grandson”

“You wouldn’t dare!” JR said

“Believe me JR, I would” Sue Ellen said “He’s my child not yours and if I have to prove that with a paternity test I will”

Sue Ellen prayed that JR wouldn’t see that she was shaking inside. She knew what the results of a paternity test would show but she needed JR to believe that John Ross wasn’t his son.

“Now JR do you mind getting out of this house and leave me alone” Sue Ellen said “I have nothing more to say to you”

“I’ll see you in court then” JR said

“You can count on it” Sue Ellen said and slammed the door behind him. Sue Ellen leant against the doorframe. She was shaken, part of her wanted to open the door and throw her arms around JR, this was going to be hell. JR walked back to his car, getting in he slammed the door and put his head in his hands. Both of them cried as they realized that they had lost something that had once been so special.

Southfork

JR finally pulled his car into his usual spot at Southfork. He climbed out of it and swaggered toward the house. “Thank goodness it’s late enough that Momma and Daddy are probably in bed. I don’t think I could deal with that now,” he thought. He reached out for the door, but before he could open it, a voice called out quietly.

“JR,” Miss Ellie said.

JR turned to face his mother. “Yes ma’am?”

“Come over and sit with me for a minute. I want to talk to you.”

“Momma, I’m not really in much of a…..”

“JR,” she said sternly. “Sit down.”

JR silently obeyed. His mother always knew exactly how to make him feel like a little boy, although tonight it wasn’t too hard for her because that’s how he felt. He felt like a lost little boy. Part of him wanted to break down, to have his mother hug him and tell him everything was gonna be alright, but he knew he couldn’t do that. That would be something a weakling would do, and he was no weakling. Sighing, he sat down in the chair next to her and stared blankly across the Southfork skyline, noticing how majestic the ranch looked in the moonlight and thinking of another moonlit night oh so long ago now.

Southfork, Eight years earlier

JR held Sue Ellen’s hand tightly as they walked away from the house. He was so nervous, he could feel his body trembling. “God,” he thought, “please let her say yes. I love her so much and for the first time in my life, I have someone who loves me. She loves me. Please let her say yes and I’ll never ask you for anything else, ever again. Please God.” When JR was sure they were out of sight of the main house, he let go of her hand and placed his arm around her shoulders pulling her next to him. Her arm happily and instinctively went around his waist. There were no words spoken, they just enjoyed being together. JR had been so busy with Ewing Oil, and Sue Ellen had been diligently completing school and her duties as Miss Texas, that there had been little time left over for romance. Tonight was the first time they’d had alone together in weeks and they both wanted to savor it. They continued their walk, until they reached the tree house overlooking the lake. JR let go of her and walked over to the edge of the lake. He reached down, picked up a rock and skipped it across the water’s surface. He stared a moment admiring it’s beauty as the moonlight reflected across the ripples of the water. Then he turned and looked at Sue Ellen, marveling at how amazing she looked. The moonlight shone down on her hair illuminating it like a wildfire lights up the night sky and her eyes sparkled as she returned his gaze. “Now’s the time,” he thought, taking a deep breath, as he beheld her beauty and the love light in her eyes. He walked back to her, slid his arms around her waist, closed his eyes and kissed her tenderly, sending shockwaves of passion and electricity throughout both their bodies. When they’d completed their kiss, he held her body tightly against his, inhaling her scent deeply. Responding to his touch, she hugged him back as firmly as she could. Sue Ellen sensed something troubling him, but remained silent. After several minutes had passed, with neither moving or speaking, finally she asked, “JR, are you alright.”

JR pulled back from her and smiled, “Yes, my Yellow Rose of Texas, I’m fine.” He pulled her closer to him and kissed her again. This time, when their kiss was complete, he dropped to one knee and grasped her hand saying, “I’ve never been very good at expressing my feelings, but Sue Ellen, all my life I’ve searched for someone like you. Someone that I could share my life with, someone that I could trust, someone I could depend and lean on when things didn’t always go the way I’d planned. I never dreamed that anyone could make me feel this way or that anyone could ever feel the way I think you feel about me. You are so beautiful and my heart swells with so many emotions whenever I’m near you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” JR reached into his jacket pocket, pulled out the ring and held it up, “Will you marry me?”

Tears flowed freely down her cheeks as she stared deeply into his eyes, listening intently with her heart to every word he spoke. When he’d finished, she gently caressed his cheek with her free hand, “JR Ewing, I love you more than life itself. Yes, I will marry you.”

JR smiled, placed the ring on her finger, stood to his feet, and they shared several passionate kisses, holding each other tightly, not wanting the moment or the happiness they felt to end. “I love you Sue Ellen,” JR whispered. He looked up to the sky, and mouthed the words, “Thank you.”

Southfork, Present Day

“Where did you go tonight, JR? To see Sue Ellen? JR!”

“Huh, what,” he said, his mind returning to the present. “Oh, yes ma’am.”

“And what did you say to her?”

“I told her that Daddy expected his grandson back at Southfork.”

“I see,” Miss Ellie replied. Several seconds of silence passed before she continued. “JR, forget what your Daddy wants. What do you want?”

JR remained silent. He knew what he wanted, but he just didn’t see any way to have that ever again. He’d tried to talk to Sue Ellen, but all she did was spit venomous insults at him, and every word she said was true.

“Answer me JR. What do you want,” she asked compassionately.

JR gritted his teeth and tried desperately to stifle his tears. Letting a deep, mournful sigh, he replied, “I don’t know Momma. I just don’t know right now.”

Ewing Oil, Several Days later,

“JR, Harve Smithfield is here to see you,” Louella said over the intercom.

JR looked at Jock. Jock looked back quizzically, and said, “Wonder what he wants?”

JR shrugged his shoulders, thinking he had a pretty good idea what was about to occur. “Send him in Louella,” he answered back. JR sat down in his chair, bracing himself for the storm he was anticipating. The door opened and Harve entered the room. “Hello, Jock,” he said shaking his hand. He moved over toward JR and shook his hand, “JR.”

“Harve. Have a seat there?” JR decided he needed a drink and stood up, walking over toward the bar. “Would you like a drink, Harve?”

No thank you JR. It’s a little early in the day for me.”

“So what brings you over here today, Harve,” Jock boomed?

“Well,” Harve squirmed in his chair, “there’s no easy way to say this.”

“Just spit it out, Harve,” JR said, chugging back a healthy swallow of his bourbon.

“JR, Sue Ellen is suing you for a divorce.” JR felt his whole body tense. He could feel his father’s eyes watching for his reaction. JR gritted his teeth for a minute before finally saying, “And?”

“And she’s asking for sole custody of your son. Of course, she’s willing to give you visitation rights. She’s also asking for child support and alimony. It’s all here in the papers I received this morning. You can look over them yourself,” he continued, handing the papers to JR. “After you’ve had a chance to look over them, we can discuss them further and decide what you want to do.”

“I’ll tell you what we want Harve,” Jock said, agitatedly. “We want custody of that boy. He’s my grandson and he belongs at Southfork.”

JR groaned inside. “Dammit, why can’t he just shut up,” he thought to himself. “I’ve got to get out of here. I’ve got to get out of here now,” he thought, but for some reason he just couldn’t move.

“And Southfork is where he’s gonna be, one way or another. We’ll fight her tooth and nail, to the highest court in the land. Isn’t that right, JR,” Jock continued?

“Yes sir,” JR replied. He wanted to say, “Hell no. I’m not gonna fight for any bastard child,” but he knew he couldn’t do that. Instead, he just took another healthy swig of his drink. “God,” he said silently to himself, “why couldn’t that boy be mine? Why couldn’t I just be the man she wanted me to be? What the hell is wrong with me? Stop it JR, just stop it. Get a hold of yourself.”

“JR,” Harve said, once again turning his attention to him, “you still need to read over these papers carefully. Are you planning on contesting the divorce, or are you gonna grant it without contest. Also, if you decide not to contest the divorce, you need to decide if the property settlement terms are agreeable to you. In actuality, she doesn’t seem to be asking for much in the way of property. It’s really just her personal items and the alimony. It appears fairly reasonable to me, but as I said, read the papers carefully and call me tomorrow to discuss it,” he said rising to his feet and walking over to JR. Harve held out his hand and JR shook it. “I certainly am sorry about all of this. You two seemed like the perfect couple. It’s such a shame things don’t always work out.”

JR just nodded his head and gritted his teeth. Harve shook hands with Jock and disappeared out the door. JR walked back to his desk, ignoring the divorce papers, and went back to concentrating on the matter he and Jock were discussing before the interruption.

“JR,” Jock said.

“Yes sir,” JR said looking up for the geology report he was reading?

“I’ve decided that you need to take some time off and get away from here. You need to clear your head and settle this divorce and custody battle. Until it’s settled, you’re of no use here.”

“Dad, I can handle this. I don’t need to take any time off. I need to be here. There are too many things going on right now for me to leave.”

“JR, that was not a request. I’m gonna take over control of the day to day operations, and I’m gonna tell Bobby that I want him here.” Jock stood and picked up the divorce papers, throwing them to JR. “Now get out of here and look those over. And you’d better figure out a way to get my grandson back where he belongs. Do you understand?”

JR just glared at his father and nodded. He rose to his feet as Jock held out his coat and hat. JR walked toward him, grabbed his coat and hat, and stormed angrily out of the office. When the door to the elevator closed and he was alone, he kicked the door as hard as he could and said, “ son-of-a-bitch.” When the elevator doors opened again, he stalked out and headed for the nearest bar to drown his sorrows.

Meanwhile, Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen had just put John Ross down for a nap and she sat on the sofa. Her mother and Kristin had decided to go shopping for the day. They’d invited her to join them, but something inside her just didn’t want to go. She just wanted to be alone. She felt she needed some time to herself, some time to think. Immediately, her thoughts drifted to JR. She thought about their last meeting. She’d been so hateful to him, but he’d hurt her so much. After she closed the door in his face and she’d regained her composure, she watched him. He sat in his car outside Patricia’s house for over an hour. His forehead lay against the steering wheel and she could tell that he was sobbing. She remembered thinking at the time, that he’d die if he knew she was watching him, that she’d seen him break down. It had taken all her strength to stay inside the house, but she knew she couldn’t go to him. She knew he could never change. She knew he could never wholly love her and her alone. He’d always want more. She knew she'd never be enough for him. Silent tears rolled freely down her cheeks as she thought about how much he’d hurt her and how much in the last few years she’d deliberately tried to hurt him, to repay him for all the pain. “God, what kind of people are we, to have played this sick little game for so long,” she scoffed to herself? “Why couldn’t we just love each other and be happy?” Her thoughts were interrupted by the ringing doorbell. Quickly, she dried her tears and answered the door. There stood the very last person on earth she ever wanted to see, even less than JR, Cliff Barnes.

JR stopped outside a bar, he really wanted to go in but something stopped him. Drinking himself into oblivion wouldn't help. He suddenly remembered how Sue Ellen had done the same thing during her pregnancy and realized that he was feeling the same pain that she must have felt. His daddy had put Bobby in charge of Ewing Oil, the favorite son, good old dependable Bobby who could do no wrong in anyone else’s eyes. JR wiped away the tears that were beginning to form. God, he longed to hold Sue Ellen in his arms and tell her that he truly loved her and that if she would give him another chance he would make everything right. The only person he wanted to be near now was her, he got back in his car and drove to Patricia's house. Even if he couldn't see her he just wanted to be near her.

Patricia's House

Sue Ellen looked at Cliff, she really did hate this man more than she hated JR.

"What do you want Cliff?" she asked

"To see my son" he replied as he walked into the house. Sue Ellen closed the door.

"You can't come barging in here making demands like that" she said

"I'm not making demands, I just want to see my son!" Cliff said

"What makes you think he's yours" Sue Ellen said "He could just as easily be JR's"

"Come off it, Sue Ellen, you and JR had been together for seven years and not been able to conceived we're together for six weeks and hey presto you're pregnant!" Cliff said

Sue Ellen sighed, she couldn't tell Cliff that he wasn't the father as just at this moment she didn't want JR to know that.

"Cliff, you had your chance, I left JR and came to you but you were too scared, for your career and what JR could do to you, to want me" Sue Ellen said "I had rejection from both you and JR"

"I want you now!" Cliff said "You and our son"

"Too late Cliff" Sue Ellen said "As far as I'm concerned John Ross is mine and only mine"

"Sue Ellen, you've left JR, there's nothing stopping us being together" Cliff said "I love you!"

Sue Ellen shook her head "Which part of 'No' don't you understand, I don't love you, all I was to you was JR's trophy wife" Sue Ellen said

"Huh, you used me to get back at JR" Cliff replied.

Suddenly the sound of the baby's crying stopped them.

"Now see what you've done!" Sue Ellen said "Just get out and leave us alone"

"Ok, Sue Ellen if you want a fight, you've got one but one way or another I'm going to see my son" Cliff said as he walked out the door.

Sue Ellen shut the door behind him and went upstairs to see her crying son. JR watched as he saw Cliff come out of Patricia's house.
"Damn" he thought "I've lost her to Cliff Barnes" He knew he couldn't let that happen even if Cliff was John Ross's father, he'd destroy Cliff before he let him have Sue Ellen. Feeling tears begin to form in his eyes he put the car in drive and started to drive home.

Sue Ellen picked up John Ross and held him tightly against her. Once again her thoughts returned to JR and she felt the tears start to flow. She went and sat down in the rocking chair and gently soothed the baby's crying.

"John Ross, what I'm I going to do" she cried "Your father has no idea how much I love him and how much I want him to know his son" John Ross' crying eased and she looked into his eyes. He reminded her so much of JR that it hurt. Sue Ellen tried to compose herself she knew that she had to be strong, her and JR were over for good, this divorce was the best thing for both of them, but if that was the case why did she hurt so much.

Southfork

JR drove through the gates of Southfork. There was nowhere else for him to go. He parked the car and got out. Miss Ellie was in the den and saw him go upstairs. She had seen the pain in his eyes, the same pain she'd seen in Sue Ellen's eyes when she collected John Ross. She couldn't understand why two people who obviously still loved each other couldn't sort things out and stay together. Five minutes later she went upstairs and knocked on JR's door.

"Who is it?" JR asked

"Momma, can I come in" Miss Ellie replied

JR gave out a sigh "Okay" he said

Miss Ellie noticed the tears in JR's eyes.

"Your home early" she said

"Daddy's decided I'm not capable of running Ewing Oil and has put Bobby in charge, I'm no longer needed" JR said

Miss Ellie silently cursed Jock, she knew JR needed to keep working at the moment.

"JR do you want to talk" she asked

"Momma the only person I want to talk to at the moment won't talk to me" he replied

"Tell me the truth, do you still love Sue Ellen" Miss Ellie asked

JR felt himself fill up with tears, he got up from his bed and walked towards the window.

"Yes, more than anything in this world" He said

Miss Ellie walked over to him and put her hands on his shoulders.

"Then why have you constantly cheated on her, and treated her like dirt?" Miss Ellie asked

"Momma, I don't know but what I do know is that I've lost the most important person in my life, when daddy told me I wasn't needed at Ewing Oil, she was the person I wanted to see" JR said

"Your father's planning on fighting for custody of John Ross" Miss Ellie said

"I know momma, but that is up to me and I'm not going to do it" JR said "John Ross needs his mother and I'm not going to hurt her anymore by taking him away"

"Is there no hope of a reconciliation" Miss Ellie asked

"No" JR said "And it's all my fault!" JR felt the tears roll down his face, he hated crying in front of his mother but these past few days had taken their toil.

Miss Ellie hugged JR tightly.

"Momma I have to get out of here" JR said

"Okay, you know where I am if you need me" Miss Ellie replied.

Patricia's Townhouse

Sue Ellen sat alone on the sofa. She had the radio playing gently in the background.

I was in your arms
Thinking I belong there
I figured it made sense, building me a fence
Building me a home, thinking I'll be strong there
But I was a fool, playing by the rules[/I
[I]The Gods may throw a dice, their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here, will lose someone dear
The winner takes it all, the loser has to fall
it' simple and it's plain, why should I complain

Sue Ellen listened to the song playing, she knew she was doing the right thing and yet she felt as though she was dying inside. Part of her wanted to go to JR, throw her arms around him and tell him that she still love him more than anything in this world, that John Ross was his son and she wanted them to give their relationship one more go but she knew she couldn't. She put her head in her hands and cried. "JR, I love you so much" she said quietly

Southfork

JR sat alone with his memories in the tree house. He always believed that he and Sue Ellen were forever that no matter how he treated her she would always forgive him. The other women meant nothing to him, with them it was just pure sex and the thrill of the chase, but with Sue Ellen it had been different, during the good times she had been so warm and loving, giving herself completely to him and not asking for anything in return. He missed her like crazy. Once again he let the tears flow. JR felt his heart breaking and realized that part of him was dying. "Sue Ellen, I'll love you forever" he said quietly.

Southfork Ranch

JR sat in the tree house looking out across the Southfork landscape for hours, feeling lost and confused, wondering what to do now. “This is how she felt all along,” he thought. “I was her whole world, and every night I spent in another woman’s arms broke another little piece of her heart until there was nothing left but sadness and emptiness. Hell, no wonder she started drinkin’.” He dropped his head, once again trying to control his tears. “So what do I do now,” he asked himself? He wiped his eyes, and reached into his pocket, pulling out the divorce and custody papers. He looked at them for several minutes contemplating his decision. He took out his pen and hurriedly signed the papers. He folded them back up and replaced them in his pocket. As he returned his pen to his pocket, he noticed his wedding ring. He sighed sadly, “Guess I don’t need that.” He pulled it off his finger and squeezed it tightly in his hand. “Goodbye, darlin’, you’re free. Maybe now you can find some happiness,” he paused, his anger growing, “but I’ll be damned before I’ll let you be with that vermin, Barnes.” He pulled his arm back and started to throw the ring into the lake, but something inside him caused him to stop.

Southfork Den

“Ellie, where the hell is that boy.” Jock asked?

“I don’t know Jock. He just said he had to get out of here. How could you do that to him? You know Ewing Oil is the most important thing in his life. How could you destroy him like that?”

“Ellie, I don’t get involved in your women’s club meetings, so stay out of my business. If JR can’t handle his personal life, how the hell do you think he can handle my business?”

“Jock Ewing, don’t you dare take that condescending tone with me. I helped you build that company remember? But, there are more important things in the world than Ewing Oil, and your son is one of them,” she said storming out of the room.

Jock watched her leave, and took a healthy sip of his bourbon, shaking his head, growled, “Women.”

Back in the Tree House

JR slipped the ring into his jacket pocket, and climbed down. He headed back toward the main house, knowing what he had to do.

The next morning, Patricia Shepard’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen made her way downstairs quietly, glancing at the grandfather clock to see that it was 5:30a.m. She had never been an early riser, but since she’d left Southfork she found herself having trouble sleeping. Sue Ellen stepped out onto the sidewalk and picked up the morning paper. She gasped when she opened it up to the front page and read the headline and saw JR’s picture. The headline read, “Family Feud?” She walked back into the house, closing the door, and sat down at the kitchen table to read. She read far enough into the article to know that Jock had relieved JR as President of Ewing Oil, and placed Bobby at the helm, under his direction. There was also mention of the impending divorce and probable custody battle. She sighed despondently. “Jock, you son-of-a… ” she said stopping herself. She shook her head and thought, “I can hear him now. ‘JR you can’t even handle your own family. How in the hell do you think I can let you handle this company? Take some time off and take care of this. I want my grandson at Southfork. I don’t care what it takes. I’ll get Bobby to take care of the business’. "Oh JR, I’m so sorry. Your whole world is just crashing down around you, isn’t it?” She sat staring at his picture, gently rubbing his cheek. "I wish I could help you, but I just can't," she whispered burying her face in her hands.

Southfork

JR woke early and dressed in slacks and a button-up shirt, without bothering to shave. He grabbed his hat and made his way downstairs to breakfast. He walked out the patio doors to the table. “Just coffee Theresa. Mornin’ Momma,” he said kissing her on the cheek.

“Mornin JR. I’m surprised you’re up so early. As late as you were, getting’ in, I thought you’d sleep late.”

“No ma’am,” he replied. “I haven’t been sleepin’ much lately. On top of that, I’ve got several things to take care of this morning. After that, I thought since it was Friday and I don’t seem to have anything to do with my time, I’d go huntin’ this weekend.”

“By yourself? Is that wise, JR,” she asked, worried about what he might do?

JR laughed slightly. He reached over and took his mother’s hand. “Yes ma’am. I’ll be fine. Don’t worry. I wouldn’t do anything stupid. I just want to get away from Dallas for a few days, get my thoughts together and figure out what to do next.”

Miss Ellie placed her hand on top of his, noticing he’d removed his wedding ring, and smiled softly at him. “Okay son, just be careful.”

JR finished his cup of coffee, stood up, placed his Stetson on his head and replied, “I will Momma. Don’t worry.”

Miss Ellie watched him with grave concern as he disappeared into his car and out of the driveway.

Harve Smithfield’s office

JR strode into Harve’s reception area. “Hi darlin’,” he smiled his best smile, “Is Harve in?”

“Uh, yes sir, Mr…..”

“Ewing. JR Ewing,” JR replied.

“Have a seat Mr. Ewing. I'll let Mr. Smithfield know you’re here,” she said turning and walking down the hallway. JR watched her hips sway as she walked, “Nice ass,” he thought to himself. “Dammit JR, that’s exactly what put you in this situation in the first f***ing place.” A few minutes later, the secretary returned. “Mr. Smithfield will see you now,” she said motioning him into the office.

“Good Morning, JR,” Harve said shaking his hand. “I didn’t expect to see you so early this morning, especially in light of the article in this morning’s paper. I’m sorry about all of this, I know it can’t be easy for you.”

JR just ignored Harve’s comments, and said, “I just came by to drop these off.” He pulled the divorce papers out of his pocket and gave them to Harve. “I signed them last night.”

Harve looked confused, “I thought you were gonna fight for custody?”

JR stared off in the distance, “Well that was Daddy’s idea. I just want this over as quickly and painlessly as possible. How long before it’s final?”

“Well, if that’s the way you want it. Since you’re not contesting it, the divorce will be final sixty days from yesterday.”

“Thanks, Harve,” JR said as he turned and left the office. “One more stop,” he thought to himself.

Office of Land Management

“Sir, you can’t go in there,” the secretary said, trying to restrain JR.

“Darlin’,” he glared evilly, “I wouldn’t try and stop me.”

The look in his eyes frightened her so that she let go of him. JR flung open the door to Cliff Barnes’ office, and slammed it behind him. He walked toward Cliff who began rising from his chair. JR grabbed him by his collar and pulled him across the desk, “Barnes’ I warned you once. Stay away from my wife and my son,” JR said through gritted teeth. He wasn’t about to let Cliff know he didn’t think the boy was his.

Despite the fact that Cliff was scared out of his mind by the murderous look in JR’s eyes, he said, “The way I hear it, you don’t have a wife anymore, and he’s my son. As a matter of fact, according to this morning’s paper, you don’t have much of anything these days.”

JR let go of Cliff, glaring at him evilly. “Don’t kid yourself Barnes. I may be down, but I’m not out. And as for my wife and my son, remember what I said. Stay away or I guarantee you’ll live to regret it.”

Patricia's Townhouse

Sue Ellen sat in the kitchen, thinking over what she had just read in the paper. Suddenly all the hatred she had felt for JR over the last few months seemed to disappear. She knew how upset he would be about Bobby being put in charge of Ewing Oil and part of her wanted to go and find him, put her arms around him and love all the hurt that he was feeling away. However she knew that that would be pointless, she had made the break and for her own good and that of her son she needed to go through this divorce. She knew JR would find his way back to the top. She was deep in thought when her mother walked in.

"Sue Ellen, do you want any breakfast" Patricia asked?

When Sue Ellen didn't answer, Patricia asked again. This time Sue Ellen looked up at her mother.

Seeing the tears in her eyes Patricia said

"Sue Ellen what's wrong?"

Sue Ellen showed her the paper. Patricia read it and said, "So, he's got what he deserves"

"No momma, I know he's hurting, the divorce and now this" Sue Ellen said

"Do you really care?" Patricia asked "After the way he's treated you"

Sue Ellen was silent for a while, collecting her thoughts "Momma, I know deep down inside me that there is only one man I will ever truly love and that is JR" she said "When he hurts I hurt"

"Then why are you divorcing him" Patricia said

"Because momma, there's a side to him that I don't like and since we've been married that's the only side I've seen of him" Sue Ellen replied "I still love him momma"

Sue Ellen buried her head in her hands and cried.

A lake somewhere outside of Dallas

JR drove until he was outside of Dallas, he needed to find somewhere peaceful just so that he could be alone with his thoughts. A few hours later he found a nice secluded spot by a lake. He got out of the car and got settled down. He wasn't really in the mood to go hunting, he just needed the space. As he sat he thought about what Harve Smithfield had said, in sixty days from now his marriage would be over, possibly his life too.

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
a lover or a friend
a big thing or a small
I]The winner takes it all[/I]

JR felt the tears stinging his eyes, there had been too many tears lately. He wondered how Sue Ellen was feeling but realized that as she was the one who wanted the divorce she was possibly okay and with Cliff Barnes sniffing around her again she seemed to have moved on. He closed his eyes and his thoughts returned to happier times. His thoughts went to the very first time that he had taken her to Southfork, she had been so nervous that the family wouldn't like her, but he reassured her that they would love her just like he did and he was right. He remembered how they had gone for a long walk around the pastures and ended up at the tree house. He had helped her climb up to the ladder and once inside they had kissed passionately, JR remembered how he wanted to go further but she pushed him away, telling him she wanted to wait. They had sat in the tree house for two hours just holding hands and talking. He felt so comfortable with her that he had opened up and talked about the pain of being second best to Bobby, she had listened to him and he could tell that she was genuinely interested. "Damn" he thought "What have I done, What have I lost" She had told him so many times that he was the most important thing in her life and he had ignored her, he wished he could turn the clock back and love her like she wanted him to. Taking his wedding ring out of his pocket he stared down at it and thought how he had lost his soul mate.

Patricia's Townhouse

Later that day Sue Ellen had a phone call from her lawyer telling her that JR was not going to contest the divorce and that in sixty days her marriage would be over. Part of her was relieved but part of her was sad as it seemed JR didn't love her as he wasn't prepared to fight for her. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Sue Ellen opened it to find David Clayton on the doorstep.

"Hi" she said "Come in"

"Thanks" he said "I've just brought round some details of a modeling job for you"

He handed her the papers and she looked them over.

"Beauty creams" she laughed "First toothpaste, now this when do we get to the good stuff"

"All in good time" David said "By the way, you will receive your first pay check next week so how about I take you out to celebrate"

Sue Ellen didn't feel like celebrating but she managed a weak smile.

"Okay what is it?" David asked "I know these aren't very thrilling assignments but hey it will get better"

Sue Ellen smiled "I've just heard from my lawyer, in sixty days time I'll be a free woman, JR isn't contesting the divorce" she said

"That's good, isn't it" he said

"I guess so" Sue Ellen replied "Part of me hoped he would fight for me"

"He's not worth it and you know it" David said

Changing the subject quickly Sue Ellen said "Where do you want to take me then"

"Anywhere you want" David said

"Okay, how about next Wednesday if you pick me up at 8pm and I'll find the most expensive restaurant I can" she laughed

"It's a deal!" David said "I've got to go now, but I will see you soon"

After he had gone Sue Ellen sat down, she knew David was right that JR wasn't worth her tears but then David didn't understand just how much she loved JR. She heard the baby cry and went to him, picked him up and held him tightly against her. The tears started to flow again.

Southfork, a few days later

JR arrived home just before dark on Sunday evening. Jock was waiting for him.

"Where have you been" he barked

"Getting away from here" JR said "Seeing as I'm no longer required"

"I've heard from Harve, you're going to let Sue Ellen have custody of John Ross" Jock said angrily

"He's her son" JR said "Beside I've caused her too much pain, I'm not putting her through anymore"

"Well, if you don't get him back here I will" Jock said

"You can't I've signed the divorce papers" JR replied

"The hell I can" Jock said "I'll be damned if I let that woman bring up my grandson"

JR wanted to scream at his father that it wasn't his grandson but he didn't have the heart.

"It's my decision" JR said "John Ross stays with Sue Ellen" he then walked past his father and went upstairs to his room. He lay on his bed wishing that Sue Ellen was beside him, he had never wanted her more than he wanted her now.

Southfork

Almost a month had passed since JR had signed the divorce papers. He hadn’t heard a word from Sue Ellen, and his father still wasn’t speaking to him. He was still fuming over the fact that JR refused to battle for custody of John Ross. “If he only knew,” JR thought to himself. Several times, his father had just about pushed him far enough to tell him, but he just couldn’t. He couldn’t hurt or disappoint either of his parents that much. He needed for them to believe that John Ross was their grandson. Harve had called and said that the visitation rights were in effect now and JR could pick up John Ross for the weekend, but he had to be back with Sue Ellen by six o’clock Sunday evening. JR trudged his way down the Southfork staircase. His mother was thrilled she was going to see her grandson and so was his father, not that he let it show. JR would rather have eaten horse manure than to have to go pick up that bastard child and bring him to Southfork, but he realized he had no choice. He reached the foot of the stairs, and his mother came out of the dining room. “Would you like me to go with you JR,” she asked?

“No, Momma. I can take care of it,” he smiled softly and kissed her cheek. “I’ll be back in a little while.” He exited the house and sped out of the driveway, dreading every passing minute more and more as he made his way closer to Patricia’s home.

Patricia’ Townhouse

He pulled his Mercedes into the driveway and climbed out. Closing the door of his car, he walked up to the door and rang the bell, removing his hat. The door opened and there stood Sue Ellen. She was dressed in tight blue jeans and a pink button-up blouse, unbuttoned just enough. She was barefooted, her hair was still slightly wet, and she wasn’t wearing any makeup. He looked her up and down, “Damn you look good,” he said before he thought about it.

“Thank you,” she blushed shyly, “Come in.”

Embarrassed, he awkwardly looked down at the floor, unsure of what to do or say. “Uh, so, uh, how have you been,” he said finally?

“Good. And you,” she said nervously back.

“Fine, I suppose,” he said playing with his hat. “I guess you heard about….Ewing Oil.”

“Yeah, I did. I’m….I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, well, uh” JR could feel himself starting to lose control of his emotions, “things work out for the best, I guess.”

“I guess,” she replied, sensing his torment and desperately trying to restrain herself from taking him in her arms. “He looks so vulnerable,” she thought to herself.

Several more seconds of awkward silence passed before they both opened their mouths to speak.

“Sue Ellen….” JR said.

“I’ll go…” Sue Ellen said.

They both let a small laugh as they spoke at the same time. JR looked at her, still smiling softly. How he loved her smile, and Lord she was sexy. “What were you gonna say, darlin’?”

Sue Ellen felt chill bumps appear on her body as he called her “Darlin.” She looked back at him. She couldn’t help but smile. He was so handsome and almost just plain adorable when he was embarrassed and played with his hat. It reminded her of when they were dating. JR always had it together. He was always Mr. I know exactly the right thing to say, but she could always get him flustered, and every time she did, he’d look at the floor and start playing with that hat.

“Somethin wrong, Darlin,” he asked, breaking her away from her thoughts?

“What, oh no, nothing’s wrong,” she replied.

“Just walk over to her JR,” he thought. “She still wants you and you sure as hell want her. Just do it.” He made a step forward, but was interrupted by the doorbell.

Sue Ellen looked surprised and walked to the door. She opened it and her heart fell to her feet. “David,” she said in shock and horror, “what are you doing here?”

David smiled charmingly, “You said JR was picking up your son this morning and I thought you might need a friend. Have I come at a bad time?”

JR felt the hair on the back of his neck bristle and every muscle in his body became tense

“Uh, well um, sort of,” she said. David peered around the door frame and spied JR.

“I guess I should’ve called first. I thought he would’ve come and gone by now,” he glanced at his watch. “I can come back later,” he said.

JR could feel himself getting angrier by the second, and though he was trying to hide it, it was getting harder and harder.

“That would be silly, why don’t you come in and wait. I was just going to get John Ross, and then JR will be on his way,” she smiled motioning him inside.

David walked in and held out his hand to JR. “Hi, I’m David Clayton.”

JR just glared at him and then turned his eyes to Sue Ellen. Panicked, she quickly said without even thinking, “David, this is my husband. JR Ewing. JR, this is my boss, David Clayton.”

JR relaxed a little, and shook David’s hand. “Did she just introduce me as her husband,” JR questioned himself. A slight smile crossed his lips momentarily, as he contemplated the fact that she still considered him her husband.

“Well,” David smiled again, “I hope I’m more than just your boss.” JR felt his agitation level beginning to rise again. “I went to college with Sue Ellen and I used to date her roommate.”

“I see,” JR said, uninterestedly.

“Well,” Sue Ellen smiled nervously and said, climbing the stairs and wanting to get out of the room as fast as she could, “I’d better go get John Ross and his things. I’m sure your parents are anxious to see him.”

“Why don’t I give you a hand, Sue Ellen,” David said?

JR pushed him aside as he passed. “I don’t think so whoever you are. He’s my son. I’ll take care of it,” he said following her up the stairs. As they reached John Ross' room and she opened the door, JR grabbed her arm and pushed her inside closing the door. “And just who the hell is that,” he whispered angrily, staring deep into her eyes and tightening his grip?

“My boss, I told you,” she said back. “Ow you’re hurting me,” she said trying to wrest from his grip.

“Is that a fact? Well maybe you ought to tell him that honey, cause he sure doesn’t act like any boss I ever knew.”

“Is that so,” she said finally managing to escape his grip. “Well, he doesn’t sleep with his secretary, so I guess you’re right. Besides, how is it any of your concern who he is,” she spat?

“Because you’re my wife,” he barked back.

“No, I’m not JR. I never was. I was something you owned, a possession. Well you don’t own me anymore. Now, I think it’s time you took your son and got out of here.”

JR knew he was on the edge of uncontrollable anger, but he couldn’t hold back any longer, “You keep him Sue Ellen. Maybe that asshole downstairs will want to help you raise the bastard son of that loser.”

As he turned to leave, she spat venomously, “That’s funny. Seems like you’re the only loser I know.”

JR froze. Sue Ellen knew she’d hit a raw nerve and immediately regretted it. “JR, I’m…”

“Forget it,” he said back, regaining his control. “You won’t have to worry about this loser anymore, honey. Next time, I’ll let my parents come and pick up their grandson,” he sneered. “The best thing I ever did was get rid of you,” he said as he disappeared down the stairs and out of the house, slamming the door behind him.

Sue Ellen turned to John Ross, and gently picked him up, as her tears flowed freely for the millionth time in the last month. Unaware that David had climbed the stairs to check on her and was watching, she said, “I’m sorry John Ross. I don’t know why I said that to your Daddy. I didn’t mean to hurt him like that.” She hugged him closer and kissed his forehead. “Oh John Ross, why do I still love him so much?”

Southfork

Miss Ellie glanced at her watch. “JR should’ve been back by now. I hope nothing happened.” She smiled to herself, “Maybe they patched things up.” She didn’t know that nothing could have been further from the truth. “I’d better call and make sure though,” she thought. She walked back inside, and dialed Patricia’s number.

Patricia’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen laid John Ross back down and wiped her face as she heard the phone ring. Sniffling and trying to control herself, she answered, “Hello.”

“Sue Ellen. It’s Ellie.”

“Oh hello Miss Ellie,” she said covering the phone to hide another sniffle.

“I was just calling to see if JR had left with John Ross yet.”

“Uh, no Miss Ellie. He left, but John Ross is still here.”

“I don’t understand,” Miss Ellie said with confusion. “Did something happen?”

“I'd really rather not discuss it, Miss Ellie,” Sue Ellen replied, regaining her composure. “If you want, you and Jock can come and pick him up for the weekend. I know how much you wanted to see him.”

“Are you sure Sue Ellen?”

“Yes ma’am. Come on over. His things are all ready.”

“All right Sue Ellen. I’ll be there in a little while.” Miss Ellie said hanging up the phone wondering what had transpired.

Oil Baron’s Club

JR stepped out of the elevator and was greeted by Dora Mae. “Hello Mr. Ewing, and how are you today?

“Fine,” he said through gritted teeth. Handing her his hat, he continued, “I’m just gonna sit at the bar, Dora Mae.”

“Sure Mr. Ewing,” she smiled in wonder at his behavior.

JR walked over to the bar and sat down, “Allen, give me my usual.”

“Yes sir, Mr. Ewing,” he replied.

Patricia’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen walked back down the stairs. “David, I think you’d better go. I think I’d like to be alone.”

“Are you sure, Sue Ellen,” he said compassionately. “I don’t think that's such a great idea.”

“Please David. I just need some time by myself.”

“Sue Ellen,” he said pulling her into his embrace, “why do you let him get to you like this. He’s not worth it. He treated you like trash. Hell he treated you worse than trash.” He lifted her chin, so their eyes met. “It’s time you moved on,” he said kissing her lips softly. Sue Ellen felt herself becoming lost in his kiss, but suddenly broke away.

“No, David. This is not right. I’m too vulnerable right now.” Opening the door, she said, “Please leave.”

“Okay Sue Ellen, but I’ll be here when you’re ready.”

“Thanks,” she smiled and closed the door.

Oil Baron’s Club

JR took his drink from the bartender, and downed it quickly. “Give me another one Allen.” Allen raised his eyebrows, but silently obeyed. “As a matter of fact Allen, whenever this glass is empty, refill it.”

“Yes sir, Mr. Ewing.

Southfork, several hours later

Miss Ellie and Jock stood in the nursery, admiring their grandson. Jock sighed, “Now that this boy’s back where he belongs, nobody’s gonna take him away again.”

Miss Ellie looked at Jock. “Jock! John Ross will go back to his mother tomorrow evening and there’s not one damn thing you’re gonna do about it. Do I make myself clear?”

Jock glared at her, but he could tell she meant business. “I reckon.”

“I wonder where JR could be. It’s not like him to just disappear without a word.”

“I don’t know Miss Ellie. He hasn’t acted like himself since this whole mess began,” Jock growled.

Bobby and Pam were just about to settle into bed for a little romance, when the phone rang. Bobby reached over and answered it. “Hello?”

“Mr. Ewing, this is Dora Mae?”

“Dora Mae? What’s wrong,” he questioned.

“It’s your brother. You need to come and get him. There’s no way he can walk, let alone drive.”

“I’ll be there as soon as I can, Dora Mae. Just don’t let him leave.”

“Oh I don’t think that’ll be a problem, Mr. Ewing.”

Bobby hung up the phone and got dressed. “What’s wrong Bobby?”

“It’s JR,” he replied, slipping his boot on. “He’s at the Oil Baron’s and apparently he’s in pretty bad shape. I’ve got to go get him.

Oil Barons

Bobby walked into the Oil Baron’s and immediately spied JR. He walked over and sat down beside him. “JR, it’s time to go.”

“Go where,” JR slurred?

“Home,” Bobby replied.

JR laughed. “I haven’t got a home.”

Bobby pulled JR to his feet, worried about what he might say next. “Alright JR, just come with me.”

“Sure thing, Mr. Perfect. Mr. Can’t do anything wrong.”

“That’s it JR,” Bobby said pushing him into the elevator and propping him against the wall. They made their way out to Bobby car and he poured JR into the seat and fastened the seatbelt around him. Bobby walked around the car, climbed in and drove back toward Southfork. JR roused up again. “Haaaay, where arrre we goin,” JR asked?

“Home JR.”

“Oh,” JR replied. “I haven’t got a home anymore. My home walked out on me and is seeing some no good rotten sleazebag.” JR passed out again.

About ten minutes later, JR roused up and began talking again. “What the hell is wrong with me Bobby? Why am I like this? Why couldn’t I just be her husband? I love her you know.”

“I know, JR,” Bobby whispered, glancing over at his brother. “I know.”

Suddenly, out of the corner of his eye, Bobby noticed headlights coming toward them. As the headlights came closer, he could tell that they were heading straight at his car. He swerved the car as hard as he could to the right, but there was nowhere to go and no time. Bobby’s car slammed into the guardrail and then the other car slammed into them and they became one intertwined twisted mass of metal and glass. Before losing consciousness, Bobby looked over at JR. All he could see was blood everywhere.

Dallas Memorial Hospital

Jock, Miss Ellie and Pam rushed through the crowd of reporters into the emergency room, frantic for any news. Jock walked up to the information desk. “I’m Jock Ewing. My son’s were brought here.”

The nurse looked at her list of patients. “Yes sir. They’re here. The doctors are working on them now.”

“Well how are they? Are they gonna be alright?”

“I don’t have any information on their condition at this time. If you’ll have a seat, I’ll let the doctor know that you are here, and someone will come out and talk with you.”

Frustrated, Jock sank down into a chair next to Miss Ellie and Pam. A few minutes passed, and Jock stood up and began pacing back and forth. “Jock will you stop pacing, you’re driving me crazy.”

Agonizingly, the minutes dragged by. “Two hours,” Jock bellowed. “You’d think they could tell us something.”

“Jock, I’m sure they’re doing everything they can for them. We just have to wait.”

Another half hour passed, and Jock was about to storm the desk, when a doctor opened the doors and walked toward them. “Mr. Ewing?”

“Yes,” Jock answered turning to face him. “How are my sons?”

The doctor replied, “Not good. They were both hurt very badly. Both had severe internal bleeding.” He glanced down at the chart he had in his hands. “Let’s see, Bobby was in better shape. He regained consciousness in the ambulance, and was awake when we took him to surgery. He had a ruptured spleen, several broken ribs, a collapsed lung and a dislocated hip. He also had a broken left arm. As I said, he's in surgery now to remove his spleen, and they will probably reset his hip and arm, if everything goes as expected in surgery.”

“But is he gonna be alright,” Pam asked?

“It’s still very touch and go, but I think he’ll pull through fine.”

“What about JR,” Jock asked?

The doctor sighed, “I’m not as optimistic. He sustained a substantial head injury and lost an enormous amount of blood, as well as broken ribs, a punctured lung and several internal injuries. He’s also in surgery. The head injury is what concerns me most, because we don’t know the extent of the damage, and he wasn’t conscious.”

“What does all that mean, Doc,” Jock asked?

“It means that your son is in very critical condition and the next 24 hours are crucial. Crucial for both your sons, but I can assure you that they are receiving the best treatment available. I’m sorry I can’t be more hopeful. We just have to wait and see.”

“Alright, Doc. Thanks,” Jock said.

“Your welcome. Nurse will you take the Ewing family up to the ICU waiting room. That’s where both your sons will be taken after surgery, and their doctors will come out and talk to you when they are out of surgery.”

Jock, Miss Ellie and Pam followed the nurse silently to the ICU waiting room. When they reached it, Miss Ellie said, “I’m gonna call Sue Ellen. I don’t want her to hear about this on the news, if I can help it.”

Jock grabbed her arm as she turned to leave. “Why are you gonna call her? She’s the one who ran out on him.”

Miss Ellie shot Jock a look that would have killed ten ordinary men. “Jock, I’m going to call her. Whatever has gone on between them, she is still his wife and the mother of his child. She has a right to be here, and when she does get here, you will show her the same respect you give me. Understand.”

“You’re right, Miss Ellie,” he sighed, letting go of her arm.

Miss Ellie walked over to the phone and dialed. After several rings, Sue Ellen groggily answered the phone. “Hello, Sue Ellen. It’s Ellie.”

“Miss Ellie,” she said suddenly wide awake. “Is something wrong? Is John Ross okay?”

“John Ross is fine. It’s JR, he and Bobby have been in a terrible accident.”

“Well how are they? Are they gonna be alright?”

No longer able to control her emotions, Miss Ellie broke down, “We don’t know Sue Ellen. They’re both still in surgery.”

“I’ll be there as soon as I can, Miss Ellie,” she said hanging up the phone and jumping out of bed. As she hurriedly dressed, all she could think was “God, please let him be okay. Please,” she pleaded.

Dallas Memorial Hospital

Sue Ellen drove to the hospital as fast as she could. Her head was spinning, she felt sick at the thought that JR could die. She knew that this had all been her fault. If she hadn't left him then Jock wouldn't of removed him from Ewing Oil, if he hadn't lost Ewing Oil he wouldn't have been at the Oil Barons tonight drunk, Bobby wouldn't have had to pick him up and they wouldn't have been involved in a car accident. Part of her wanted to stop the divorce and tell JR that she loved him and that John Ross was his son but she knew she couldn't, the problems they had before would still be there. Maybe they could be happy for a while but soon JR would go back to his old ways of cheating on her and she'd be back at square one and end up hating him again. She couldn't live her life like that! The divorce was the best thing that could happen.

She entered Dallas Memorial and was told to go to the ICU. She saw Jock and Miss Ellie waiting outside and walked over to them.

"How is he?" she asked

"What do you care, Sue Ellen" Jock said

Sue Ellen was silent, God, she cared, she cared too much. Suddenly the doctor came out from the ICU and told them that they could go and see the two men. Bobby had regained consciousness but JR was unconscious. Jock and Pam went to see Bobby while Miss Ellie went into JR's room. Sue Ellen stood outside alone, she didn't know what to do. Walking out of the ICU unit she wandered around the hospital for a while and found a chapel. She walked in and sat down. Her tears began to flow freely, for half an hour she sat there and prayed that JR would be okay. Her thoughts were interupted by Miss Ellie.

"Sue Ellen, you can go and see JR if you want" She said

"Jock wont like that" Sue Ellen replied

"Sue Ellen what is happening with you two, I can see that you're both in so much pain with this divorce and I know that both of you still love each other" Ellie said

"Miss Ellie, I love JR more than I will ever love anyone else but we can't be together, this marriage has been a sham for so long I'm one of his possessions not his wife. I just can't put up with the way he treats me anymore" Sue Ellen said

"He loves you" Miss Ellie said

"I know and that is what makes this all so painful, after I heard that Jock had removed him from Ewing Oil I just wanted to see him, hold him and make the pain go away but I couldn't because I know for some reason neither of us can express our love to each other" Sue Ellen said

"Go and see him" Ellie said

Sue Ellen walked back into the ICU and went into JR's room. He was still unconscious and wired to machinery. She hated seeing him like this. She sat down in the chair by his bedside and took his hand in hers. Softly she spoke

"I'm sorry JR; I never wanted any of this to happen. All I ever wanted was to have you love me and only me but you just couldn’t do that, you had to be chasing after other women. You wouldn’t believe how much I would love us to move away from here and be together with our son, and believe me JR, I know he’s your son I only have to look at him to see you, he has your eyes. The only person who can’t see that is you. Please JR you have to get better, I love you so much. You’re not the only one who’s hurting, I miss the way we were before we got married, I miss the man I met and fell in love with, you changed so much after we got married I felt I didn’t know you”

Sue Ellen looked around the room, the only sound she could hear was that of the machines as they worked to keep JR alive. She bent down and kissed JR on the lips, before deciding that it was time for her to go home.

Patricia’s Townhouse

It was quite late when Sue Ellen returned home, however her mother was waiting up for her.

“How’s JR” Patricia asked

“He’s still unconscious, the next twenty four hours are critical” Sue Ellen replied. Sue Ellen sat down on the sofa, put her head in her hands and cried.

“Momma, what have I done” she cried “This is all my fault”

“Sue Ellen, it’s not your fault, you didn’t cause the car accident” Patricia said

“Momma I love him so much, I couldn’t bear it if he died” Sue Ellen said

Patricia went to Sue Ellen and hugged her tightly “Momma my life is a mess” Sue Ellen said

“Things will look better soon, you have John Ross” Patricia said

“John Ross, he’ll never know his father” Sue Ellen said

“What do you mean?” Patricia asked

“JR thinks that he’s not John Ross’ father but I know he is” Sue Ellen said “Last year I had an affair, I just needed someone to love me but then I became pregnant”
“Sue Ellen are you telling me that you don’t know who his father is” Patricia asked

Sue Ellen looked at her “No, he’s JR’s baby, I’ve known that from the moment I saw him, however JR thinks he’s someone else’s which is possibly why he didn’t fight for custody, I couldn’t bear to be parted from my baby so I let JR believe that he wasn’t the father and now he hates his son” Sue Ellen said

“Who does JR think the baby’s father is” Patricia asked

“Cliff Barnes” Sue Ellen said “JR’s arch enemy. If I tell him the truth I will lose John Ross and I can’t do that”

“Sue Ellen I told you not to marry JR” Patricia said

“Momma I love him” Sue Ellen said “I wish I could make this pain go away but I can’t”

“Are you ever going to tell JR the truth about John Ross” Patricia asked

Sue Ellen was silent for a while. She knew what would happen if JR ever found out about John Ross, then she realized what she had said tonight, but JR was unconscious so he probably wouldn’t of heard her. “I can’t” she said

Patricia sighed “Sue Ellen it’s late, you really should get some rest”

Sue Ellen kissed her mother and went upstairs; she stopped by John Ross’ room and looked into the empty crib. She picked up the teddy bear that had been left there and hugged it tightly to her. One day she knew that she would have to tell JR the truth, she knew that JR would be a good father and give John Ross all the love that Jock never gave him, but just at the moment she had to keep this secret to herself.

Southfork the next day

Sue Ellen drove through the gates of Southfork to pick up her son. She was greeted on the porch by Miss Ellie.

“Hello Sue Ellen, I guess you want John Ross” Miss Ellie said

“How’s JR” Sue Ellen asked

“Well apparently he had a reasonable night but still hasn’t regained consciousness” Miss Ellie replied “I’m going to see him later”

“Has John Ross been okay” Sue Ellen asked

“He’s fine, he only woke up once in the night” Miss Ellie said “I can’t believe how much he looks like JR”
Sue Ellen smiled “I know, every time I look into his eyes I see JR, he’s so beautiful”

“Come on let’s go upstairs” Miss Ellie said

They walked upstairs and into the nursery. John Ross was awake and staring at the mobile moving above him. Sue Ellen picked him up and held him close.

“Hello baby boy, I’ve missed you so much” she said “Miss Ellie you can always come and visit him”

“I know” Miss Ellie said “I just wish you were both here”

Sue Ellen smiled “Miss Ellie whatever happens in the future, I can promise you that I will only ever truly love JR and I’m going to make sure John Ross knows how much his parents love each other” she said “I better get him home”

Miss Ellie walked with Sue Ellen to the car and kissed her goodbye.

“Let me know any news on JR please” she said

“I will” Miss Ellie replied

Ellie watched Sue Ellen drive away. Her thoughts turned to when JR first brought Sue Ellen to Southfork, she had been so shy and JR had been so in love with her. Why did things have to change? Why couldn’t two people who loved each other be happy?

Patricia’s Townhouse

Sue Ellen had just put the baby down when she heard a knock at the door. She opened it to find David standing on the doorstep.

“Hello” He said “Can I come in”

Sue Ellen reluctantly let him in .

“I heard about JR, how is he?” he asked

“Still unconscious” Sue Ellen said

“Hey, how about I take your mind of things and take you out tonight” David said

Sue Ellen shook her head “I don’t really feel like doing anything at the moment” she said

“Sue Ellen, in a months time your divorce will be through, you will no longer be JR’s wife so stop feeling sorry for him, it’s his fault not yours” David said

“JR could die, I can’t stop caring about him just because we’re getting divorced” Sue Ellen said

“Sue Ellen he’s treated you like dirt for most of your married life, forget him!” David said

“I can’t” Sue Ellen replied “I love him” Suddenly she realized what she had said “I mean I did love him” she corrected herself

“Nice try, but tell me the truth, you’re still in love with him aren’t you” David said

Sue Ellen couldn’t look at David, he was right she was still in love with JR. “Yes” she said

David decided it was time to go, “Okay, I guess I’ll see you at work” he said before leaving.

“I’m sorry David” she said

David kissed her before walking out of the door “I’ll still be waiting for you when you decide that you want to forget JR and start again.

Sue Ellen closed the door behind him. Nothing made any sense anymore. David had been so warm and affectionate with her, which was what she craved for and what JR could never give her but why did she reject him, why did she still love JR.

Dallas Memorial (a week later)

Sue Ellen held her breath as she walked into JR’s room. He was still in a lot of pain with his hip and arm, but day by day his health was improving. He looked up from his newspaper as he saw the door open. He was surprise to see Sue Ellen and John Ross there.

“What do you want?” he said angrily

“I just wanted to see if you’re okay” Sue Ellen said

“What do you care, I’m sure your new man wouldn’t appreciate you visiting your ex husband” JR said

“I thought you might like to see John Ross” Sue Ellen said

“Why would I want to see that bastard” JR said

Sue Ellen started to cry “JR…”

“Sue Ellen just get lost, you’re the reason I’m in here, just take your little bastard and get the hell out of my life” he said “I told you before the best thing I ever did was get rid of you” he said angrily “I’m considering telling momma and daddy that he’s not my son, that way you wont have any reason to come near the Ewings again”

“JR please.” Sue Ellen said

“Get out” JR said

The baby started crying “And just shut that thing up will you” JR said

Sue Ellen hurried out of the room as quickly as she could and made her way back to the car. She managed to calm John Ross down and settled him in the car. She spent half an hour in the carpark in tears desperately trying to calm down. She knew JR hated her, it was time to move on. Her heart was breaking she loved him so much.

JR lay in his bed cursing himself for the way he had just treated Sue Ellen. He needed her support she was the only one who could help him but he had finally pushed her away. He longed for her to take him in her arms and kiss all the pain away, but this time he knew he had blown it. She wouldn’t visit him again. And John Ross, he was such a beautiful child. JR wished that he was his father.

Southfork

After what felt like thousands of tests and an eternity in the hospital, JR was finally well enough to go home. Despite the fact he was still in a lot of pain due to the broken ribs he’d sustained and the doctors had no idea what was the cause of the terrible headaches he continued having, JR was thrilled to be back at Southfork. Leaning heavily on his cane, with his mother at his side, he walked into the den and sat down. “Are you sure you don’t want to go upstairs and lie down,” Miss Ellie asked?

“No Momma,” JR replied trying to maintain the last of his patience. “I’ve done nothing but lie around for the last three weeks. I just want to sit here and sort through my mail. Then I might go for a walk or something depending on how I feel.”

“Alright JR, she said kissing his cheek. “It’s good to have you home. Southfork just hasn’t been the same without you. If you need anything, just let me know.”

“I will Momma.” As she left the room, he turned his attention to the stack of mail that had accumulated. He began sorting it into two piles: trash and important, when he came to an envelope from Thompson & Thompson, Attorneys at Law. His heart sank immediately. He didn’t really have to open the envelope. He knew what was inside, but he opened it anyway. He unfolded the document and sure enough, it read “Final Decree of Divorce.” Slowly he made his way upstairs. He opened the door to his room, and walked over to the bed. Exhausted, he sat down, staring at the picture of his now ex-wife and rubbed his aching head. Hoping to relieve the throbbing pains in his head, he lay back against the headboard and stretched out, closing his eyes. Miss Ellie knocked softly and opened the door. “JR,” she said quietly as she walked over, and sat beside him, placing her hand on his. “Is there anything you need?”

“No Momma,” he replied, rolling his closed eyes, “I’m fine.”

“You’ve got another headache, haven’t you?”

“Yes ma’am.”

“Have you taken anything?”

JR chuckled sarcastically, “Just four BC powders, and two glasses of bourbon.”

“Have they helped at all,” she asked sympathetically?

“No, not even a little,” he sighed. “What am I gonna do if they don’t stop?”

“Don’t you worry about that, Son. They will. You just have to give it time.”

About a month later, Sue Ellen’s new home

Sue Ellen held David’s hand tightly. “Okay, keep your eyes closed,” she said as they pulled into the driveway. She pulled his car to a stop in front of the house. “Alright, open them.”

David opened his eyes. “What’s this?”

“This is mine and John Ross’ new home. Do you like it?”

David smiled at her. “Well, I don’t know yet. I haven’t seen it all.”

“Well allow me to give you the grand tour,” she said climbing out of the car and walking into the house.

David followed her and closed the door behind them. Once they were safely inside, he pulled her to him and kissed her passionately. When they’d completed their kiss, he said, “Congratulations Sue Ellen. I think you’ve finally broken free and put your past behind you.”

Sue Ellen smiled her best smile, knowing that really all she’d done was bury her feelings in busyness and her son.

“And to celebrate,” he continued, “I am going to take you out on the town tonight to the finest restaurant in Dallas and we are going to dance the night away.” Sue Ellen smiled again, “I’d really like that.”

David wrapped her up tightly in his arms, lifted her up off the ground and twirled her around, laughing, “Finally.” Once again he kissed her. “Now show me the rest of this place, I’m especially interested in the bedroom.”

Sue Ellen smirked at him and they continued their journey through her new home.

Meanwhile, Southfork

Rubbing his face, he groggily answered, “Who is it?”

“You have a telephone call, Mr. Ewing,” Theresa answered back.

“Okay,” he replied, as he picked up the receiver. “JR Ewing.”

“JR, it’s Marilee Stone. How are you doing?”

JR yawned and said, “Fine, Marilee, and yourself?”

“Well, I could be better,” she said in her flirtiest tone.

“And how is that,” he replied, rubbing his aching neck?

“You could have dinner with me tonight.”

“I’m not sure that’s a good idea,” he replied. “Seth probably wouldn’t care too much for it. He and I have never quite seen eye to eye.”

“Seth is out of town, and I hate eating alone. Besides, I have a proposition I’d like to discuss with you.”

JR’s ears pricked up. Whatever anyone said about Marilee, she was a shrewd business woman. In the past, he’d usually dealt with Seth, but everyone in the oil community knew that she was the brains of the operation. She had a head for business and body for sin, and she used both to her advantage. JR smiled to himself, maybe this wouldn’t be just another boring day in his now useless life. “What kind of a proposition?”

“You know me JR. A business proposition…with maybe a little time left over for pleasure.”

JR smiled again and shook his head, “When and where?”

“How about Carrera’s at 6:30pm.,” she replied, smiling wantonly.

“I’ll see you then,” he replied.

Carrera’s Restaurant

JR and Marilee sat at their table making idle chatter as they waited for their drinks.

“So JR, you’re looking very well…” JR’s mind wandered as he saw Sue Ellen glide into the room escorted by that man that had been at her house the day of the accident.

Over you by Anne Murray plays softly in the background

Over you….I guess I never will be over you
I have tried but it’s so hard to do
I’m surrounded by the memories
No I never will be over you

JR watched intently as they’re seated at a table across the room, noticing how happy she looks, laughing and talking with him. “Definitely not just her boss,” he thought. “Stop it JR. You had your chance and you blew it.” The waitress delivering the drinks brought JR back to reality. “Darlin’, go ahead and get me another of these,” he said.

“JR, maybe you’d better take it easy with those.”

“Marilee, my drinking habits are none of your business. Now what exactly is this business proposition you have in mind?”

“Well, JR,” she smiled rubbing her foot up his leg, “I just bought this little natural gas company and I need someone to run it for me.”

“Now Marilee, you and I both know that Stonehurst has an ample supply of people who could run that company. Besides that, Seth and I have never gotten along very well and I’m sure he’d be thrilled to know that you’re extending this offer to me, so what are you really up to?”

Marilee smiled wickedly, “You know me too well, JR. The reason is simply this, I didn’t include the cartel in the deal, and I don’t want them to know about it. The way I figure it, I’ll let you buy half of it and keep my half a secret. I know how good you are at keepin’ secrets,” she flirted.
“I’ll think it over,” he replied.

“Don’t think too long,” she flirted, “my offer only lasts so long. Now what shall we order?”

JR picked up his menu, but once again his attention was diverted as David and Sue Ellen walked out onto the dance floor. He tried hard to suppress the jealousy, hurt, anger and mostly the regret he was feeling.

Time goes by and I’m still holdin on
Waiting for the day when you come home
If you ever change your mind again
I will greet you like a long lost friend
In my heart we’ve never reached the end
And I never will be over you

David pulled Sue Ellen close to him, wrapping his arms around her waist. She placed her arms around his neck and they melted together as they danced.

“She certainly looks happy,” JR thought. Didn’t take her very long to get over me. Hell, I guess maybe she never really loved me anyway.”

Sue Ellen noticed JR from the dance floor and immediately felt her body tense. “Stop it Sue Ellen,” she said to herself. “He’s not your husband anymore. You’re on a date with a wonderful, caring, loving and honest man, not a liar and a cheat.” But no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t hide from herself the jealousy she felt at seeing him out with another woman. “Are you alright, Sue Ellen,” David asked? Sue Ellen pulled back, looked into his eyes, faked her best smile, and said, “Yes David, I’m wonderful.”

I will love you till the end of time
Even though I know that you’re not mine
Just as long as there’s a chance that
I guess I never will be over you

Trying not to be too obvious that he was staring, JR occasionally glanced at his menu as though he was reading it, but when she stared into that man’s eyes, he thought he would come out of his chair. He wanted to jump up, storm over there and beat the living hell out of that man. Only the appearance of the waitress stopped him. “Have ya’ll decided,” the waitress asked?

“No,” JR replied, “we haven’t. Give us a few more minutes.” The waitress nodded and disappeared. The song ended and he watched Sue Ellen walk back to their table. A wicked smile crossed his lips as he watched her hips sway back and forth and he caught a glimpse of her legs through the slit of her dress. Then the reality set in again and he realized that he would never hold her, or touch her or kiss her ever again. Suddenly, he knew he had to get out of that restaurant and now. He knew he was about to lose it and there was no way he was gonna let that happen in front of Marilee or anyone else. For once, the headaches he’d been getting became an asset. He grabbed his head as the pains shot through it.

Life’s like walking down a lonely street
I see you in everyone I meet
How I long to see your smiling face
Oh my love for you I can’t erase
No one else could ever take your place

“JR, are you okay,” Marilee asked?

When he could speak, he said softly, “No, I think we’d better leave.” They got up from their seats and Marilee had to help him out of the restaurant. Sue Ellen noticed them getting up and watched as Marilee helped JR. “Is he drunk,” she thought to herself, but she’d seen him drunk and he wasn’t acting like that. “Why is he holding his head,” she asked herself? “Something’s wrong,” she knew instinctively. “Stop it Sue Ellen. He’s no longer your concern.” She returned her attention to her evening with David, although JR was never out of her thoughts.

As JR and Marilee disappeared out the door, he glanced back one last time at her.

Sue Ellen’s Home

Sue Ellen put the phone down and went and sat on the sofa. Putting her head in her hand she felt the tears form in her eyes. Why had she let JR persuade her to stay the night with him? It should never have happened. Then she thought back to how wonderful the evening had been, and how their love-making had been so warm and tender unlike the other times during their marriage when JR had only wanted her for sex. She cursed herself for still being in love with him, she still wanted him more than anything in this world but she knew that they couldn’t be together.

The Ewing Condo

After downing some bourbon with his painkillers JR went and sat on his bed, he thought back to the night before, he had thought they had made a start on rebuilding their relationship but Sue Ellen had only made love to him out of pity. Well he didn’t need his pity; he didn’t need anyone’s pity. He felt tears stinging his eyes and realized that although he didn’t need Sue Ellen’s pity he needed her love. Noone had ever loved him the way she loved him, last night she had given herself completely, God how he missed her.

Sue Ellen’s House (A week later)

Sue Ellen came home from a very exhausting Modeling assignment. She had been doing an television advert for a new kind of beauty product, but it had taken four hours to get a simple three minute commercial right. She went upstairs into John Ross’ room and looked into his crib.

“Hi sweetheart, you’re awake” she said smiling

John Ross reached his arms out for his mother and she lifted him out of the crib.

“Hey, your momma’s really missed you today” she said and gently kissed him on the forehead. Suddenly she was disturbed by the telephone. Putting the baby down she went to answer it.

“Hello” she said

“Hi Sue Ellen its David” came the reply

“David, it’s good to hear from you” She replied

“I was just wondering how your day was” David asked

Sue Ellen smiled “Exhausting, I can’t believe how much effort it takes to make a three minute commercial” she said

“Don’t suppose you want to come out tonight/” David asked

“Sorry, can I take a raincheck” she said

David sighed “Okay” he said

Hearing his disappointment Sue Ellen thought for a moment “However why don’t you come here for dinner and we can enjoy a quiet night in” she said

“Sounds fine to me” He said

“Okay I’ll see you later” she said

After hanging up the phone she went back to the nursery, she looked down at her son. She wished she hadn’t invited David around but he had been so good to her that she didn’t want to hurt his feelings. Suddenly she felt uncomfortable, what if he wanted more out of tonight, and she wasn’t ready for that. Looking at John Ross made her realize something else, the only person she wanted to make love to her was JR, and her life was too complex how could she see David and still only want JR?

Southfork

JR sat alone in the den feeling angry and frustrated. It had been a whole week since he and Sue Ellen had made love in the Condo and he hadn’t heard from her. He suddenly realized that tomorrow was Saturday and he would have to pick Cliff Barnes’ bastard up and pretend to play happy families for his mother and father’s sake. Oh well there was one consolation at least he couldn’t see the brat, being blind did have it’s advantages. His thoughts were interrupted by his mother.

“JR are you okay?” She asked

“I’m fine momma, I’ll just be glad when I can see and start getting my life back again” He replied

“Well, at least tomorrow you’ll have your son with you” she said “What time are you going to pick him up”

JR felt a cold chill go through him. How long could he keep this pretence up? John Ross was not his son, he felt absolutely nothing for him, in fact he hated him. He softly spoke.

“I don’t know momma, I think Sue Ellen is going to bring him here” he said

“Okay, we’re really looking forward to seeing him” Miss Ellie said

JR felt a headache come on and getting up from his seat he walked over to his desk draw and took out the painkillers. Putting four tablets in his hand he reached for the bourbon and poured himself a glass, downing both the pills and drink in one.

“JR!” Miss Ellie said “You should go easy with those tablets, they’re not sweets” she said

“Momma, I know what I’m doing” He shouted “I’ve got a really bad headache I need them”

Sue Ellen’s house

Sue Ellen and David enjoyed a nice quiet meal which she had cooked. They then went and sat on the sofa. David cuddled up to her and Sue Ellen allowed herself to relax. David began to kiss her gently and she responded to his touch. Slowly his hand reached inside her blouse and he began to squeeze her breast, Sue Ellen continued to kiss him and felt herself becoming more aroused. David let his hand wonder down towards her skirt and reached underneath it. Slowly he let his hand move inside her panties and finding her folds gently stroked her love button, Sue Ellen’s hands went to the zip of his trousers, undid it and pulled his manhood free, David felt himself becoming hard at her touch, Sue Ellen stroked him gently until David could finally take no more.

“Sue Ellen I want you” he said, lifting her skirt again he removed her panties, Lifting his body up he then let Sue Ellen remove his trousers. David was finally happy at last Sue Ellen was going to let him make love to her. Feeling his manhood come close to her crotch Sue Ellen screamed

“No, I can’t do this!” she said

“What!” David asked

“David I’m sorry, this is wrong, I’m not ready” she said

“You sure as hell seem ready enough to me” he said angrily.

“Please, I need more time” she said

David pulled away and got off the sofa pulling on his boxers and trousers quickly. She looked at him and could tell that he was angry.

“David….please don’t be angry, I just need a little bit more time” she said

“Sue Ellen forget it, I know you’re still in love with JR!” he said

“I’m not!” she said

David got up to leave
“I love you” she said

David shook his head “At least if you’re going to say that, say it as though you mean it” he said, he then walked towards the hall and the front door

Sue Ellen followed him, as he opened the front door she put her arms around him and tried to hug him but David rejected her advances. Angrily he left and slammed the door behind him. Sue Ellen leant against the door and cried. She had wanted him but something inside her stopped her. The thought of him inside her had made her feel ill and she knew she couldn’t do it. She needed JR. She looked at the phone on the stand and picked it up, something inside her made her dial Southfork. She let it ring for a few seconds and then heard his voice as he picked it up. She felt butterflies in her stomach but found herself unable to speak. Quickly she put the phone down.

Southfork (the following day)

Sue Ellen arrived at Southfork with John Ross. Miss Ellie was there to greet her.

“Sue Ellen how are you?” she said

“I’m fine” Sue Ellen replied

“Would you like to stay for awhile” Ellie asked

Sue Ellen hesitated “Okay” she said finally

“JR’s in the den” Ellie replied “Why don’t you take his son to him”

Sue Ellen smiled and went inside the house. She knew what his reaction would be when he saw them. He hated John Ross and she was sure that after the Condo incident he would hate her. She looked at the baby in her arms and felt tears come into her eyes. She knew that sooner or later the truth would have to come out, for John Ross’ sake anyway; she couldn’t let his father hate him forever. She wandered into the den to find JR sitting at his desk.

“JR” she said closing the door behind her

“What do you want?” he said

“I’ve brought your son to see you” she said

“Sue Ellen how long are we going to keep up this pretence, that bastard is not my child and you know it” JR replied

“Your parents don’t believe that” Sue Ellen said

“Yes but they don’t know you slept with Cliff, do they” JR said

Sue Ellen walked closer to him “JR, your son wants you” she said softly.

“Sue Ellen the one advantage I have at the moment is that being blind I don’t have to see him, take him up to the nursery” JR said

“Please JR he’s yours” Sue Ellen cried

JR felt himself getting angry “Sue Ellen, just get out of here and take your bastard with you!” he shouted

Sue Ellen felt stunned, not quite knowing what to do for the best she walked out of the den. She felt the tears streaming down her face. Trying to compose herself she walked back outside. Miss Ellie saw her distress and walked over to her.

“What’s wrong?” Ellie asked

“Miss Ellie, JR isn’t feeling too good so I don’t think it’s a good idea for John Ross to stay” Sue Ellen said

“But we were looking forward to him being here” Ellie replied

Sue Ellen began to cry “I know, but with JR the way he is, it’s not a good idea, but I promise you that you can come by the house and visit whenever you want” Sue Ellen said

“You’re not going to bring him here again are you?” Ellie said

“I can’t,” Sue Ellen said “Things are just too bad between JR and me at the moment”

Sue Ellen walked back to her car and placed the baby inside. Driving out of the gates of Southfork she felt herself shaking. She stopped the car and placed her hands in her head. She caught sight of the baby in the back of the car and burst into tears. This was so wrong, something had to be done and the only way to prove who John Ross’ father was would be a Paternity Test.

“John Ross, I love you and believe me so does your daddy” Sue Ellen spoke softly to the baby.

Southfork (six weeks later)

Miss Ellie was looking forward to the arrival of John Ross. She had finally persuaded Sue Ellen to bring him to Southfork for the weekend. JR was behaving like a bear with a sore head but she told Sue Ellen that she would look after the baby.

Sue Ellen felt drained as she drove up towards the gates of Southfork. The past few weeks she had been feeling ill, it took all her strength to work and look after John Ross, she was relieved that this weekend she wouldn’t have to worry about the baby, that he would be well taken care of by his grandparents. The feeling of nausea hit her again and she stopped the car, maybe it was time to make a doctor’s appointment. She had been putting it off for a while hoping that this virus she had would go but she didn’t appear to be getting better.

Miss Ellie and Jock were on the porch as Sue Ellen drove up. She got out the car and greeted them then lifted the baby out of his seat.

“How’s JR” she said

“Not that it’s any concern of yours, he’s okay” Jock said

Miss Ellie gave him a stern look. Seeing how pale Sue Ellen was she said

“Sue Ellen do you want a drink”

“Miss Ellie, I don’t want to cause anymore trouble I think it’s probably best that I go” she replied

Suddenly Sue Ellen felt weak and felt her legs give way from underneath her. Quickly she handed the baby to Miss Ellie and grasped one of the chairs on the porch.

“Sue Ellen!” Miss Ellie shouted and handed John Ross to Jock

“Jock, get me some water now!” she ordered

Jock stormed off into the house. Hearing the commotion JR came out from the den. Seeing his father he asked him what was going on.

“Seems your ex-wife is making a spectacle of herself, must be on the bottle again” Jock replied

JR felt a touch of concern. How long would it be before he could forget her. She didn’t love him she made that clear. He went outside to find the others.

Miss Ellie was sat next to Sue Ellen, noticing JR she got up.

“JR look after Sue Ellen, I’m going to take John Ross inside” she said

JR walked over and sat beside Sue Ellen. He wished he could see her, all he wanted to do was take her in his arms and love her.

“Sue Ellen” JR said taking her hand in his
Sue Ellen was silent; she felt sick but was relieved at JR’s touch. Suddenly she felt an overwhelming sense of pain.

“JR, God the pain, it hurts” she screamed

JR felt panic come over him “What pain” he asked

“My stomach” she screamed “I can’t take it”

She stood up and tried to walk but she felt weak again and collapsed into JR’s arms.

Dallas Memorial Hospital

Miss Ellie drove her to the hospital, JR sat in the back of the car holding Sue Ellen’s hand, she was drifting in and out of consciousness. On arrival at the hospital Miss Ellie and JR were directed to the waiting room while the doctors examined Sue Ellen.

They were both silent deep in thought finally JR broke the silence.

“Momma I don’t want to lose her” he said

Miss Ellie looked at JR “She’ll be fine” she said

JR wasn’t so sure, he felt tears in his eyes again.

“Momma, when is this hurting going to stop, I love her so much, I always have and yet I can do nothing but cause her pain” he said

“I know you love her JR, but I just don’t understand why you treated her like you did” Miss Ellie said

“Momma I wish I knew, maybe I thought that she would always love me no matter what I did” JR said

“That doesn’t give you the right to cheat on her” Ellie replied

JR looked at her

“Oh come on JR, you’ve cheated on that girl from the day you married her and all she ever wanted was for you to love her” Ellie said

“Momma I would give anything to have another chance with her” JR said

“I know” Miss Ellie sighed

Once again both became silent, each deep in thought. Miss Ellie knew that Sue Ellen still loved JR and she could see the pain in JR’s eyes to know that he deeply missed her but somehow she didn’t hold out much hope for reconciliation, there had been too much hurt in the past. JR thought back to the night in the Condo, making love to Sue Ellen that night had been like nothing he had ever experienced. He remembered the feel of her tender touch, her voice constantly telling him that she loved him, no other woman had ever done that for him. He loved her so much. Their thoughts were interrupted by the doctor. Miss Ellie stood up.

“Well how is she?” Miss Ellie asked

“She’s going to be fine, but unfortunately she lost the baby and quite a bit of blood” the doctor said

Miss Ellie and JR both looked shocked

“Baby?” JR said

“Yes” the doctor said “She was about eight weeks pregnant”

“Can we see her?” JR asked

“For a little while but I warn you she’ll be a big groggy, we’ve given her a sedative” the doctor said

After the doctor had left Miss Ellie turned to JR and said

“I didn’t know she was seeing anyone”

JR was silent “Momma, do you remember the night I stayed at the condo” JR asked

“After you took Sue Ellen out for a meal” Ellie said

“Yes” JR replied “Well Sue Ellen stayed with me and we slept together”

“Are you saying that the baby she lost was yours” Ellie said

“Yes” JR said

They walked into Sue Ellen’s room. JR looked at her and took her hand. She appeared to be fast asleep. They stayed with her for half an hour but she didn’t wake.

“I think we should go JR” Miss Ellie said “Beside your son needs you too”

JR felt himself go cold at the thought of John Ross, however he knew he couldn’t make a scene so he reluctantly agreed to go home.
“JR, we can come back tomorrow” Ellie said

Southfork

That evening JR lay in bed, his only thoughts were for Sue Ellen and their lost child, their only child not the bastard imposter that was sleeping in the nursery. He was so glad at this moment that he had no sight at least his parents couldn’t expect him to look after the brat. After all they wouldn’t want their precious grandson to be dropped. He longed to have Sue Ellen with him, to hold her in his arms and for them both to love all the hurt and pain away. Suddenly he felt a headache come on and reached over to his bedside cabinet and got out four painkillers, taking all of them without water. Then he lay down and tried to sleep.

Dallas Memorial Hospital

Miss Ellie drove JR to the hospital early. He was anxious to see Sue Ellen. He wanted to tell her how much he loved her and how he would have been the perfect father to their baby. JR asked his mother to wait outside while he went in first. Sue Ellen was sat up in bed, the doctor had given her the news of the baby and she felt devastated. Her face brightened when she saw JR.

“Hi” he said “How are you feeling”

“Tired” she said “How’s John Ross”

“Okay” he said grumpily “Kept everyone awake all night”

“JR…..” Sue Ellen said

“Was it mine?” JR asked

Sue Ellen began to cry “Yes, the night at the condo” she said

“Sue Ellen you lost our baby” JR cried

“I know, I’m sorry” she said

JR took her in his arms and hugged her tightly, Sue Ellen felt herself responding to JR’s touch she loved him so much.

“JR we still have John Ross” she said

“Sue Ellen why couldn’t he have died instead of our baby, why couldn’t you have lost Barnes’ baby” JR said

“JR, that’s a terrible thing to say” Sue Ellen said “And he’s not Cliff’s baby”
“Sue Ellen we both know that he’s not mine” JR said “I hate him and I wish he was dead”

Sue Ellen let her tears flow freely. John Ross was JR’s baby and she really did need him to know that but nothing she said would convince him.

“JR I’m feeling really tired, please can you leave” Sue Ellen said

JR reluctantly let go off her “I’m sorry, it just thinking of that little bastard makes me so angry”

Sue Ellen turned her head away from him, “JR just go” she said

JR walked out of the room, Miss Ellie looked at him and could tell that he was upset

“What happened?” she asked

“JR composed himself “She’s just tired” he said

“Can I go in and see her” Ellie asked

“If you must, I’ll wait out here, all I do is upset her” JR said

Miss Ellie walked into the room, Sue Ellen still had her back turned away from the door. Miss Ellie softly spoke her name causing Sue Ellen to turn to her. She saw the tears streaming down her ex daughter-in-law’s face and went to hug her.

“Sue Ellen, I’m so sorry” Ellie said

”Miss Ellie everything is a mess” Sue Ellen cried

“I know, but things will get better” Ellie said

“Miss Ellie, JR hates John Ross” Sue Ellen said

“That’s not true” Ellie replied

“It is so” Sue Ellen said “JR thinks that he’s not John Ross’ father”

“But he looks so much like JR” Ellie said “Anyone can see that”

“Everyone but his father” Sue Ellen said “Miss Ellie JR and I were having problems at the time I conceived John Ross, he was always away nights and we never made love anymore. I thought he didn’t love me so I had an affair, JR thinks that John Ross is the result of that affair”

“But he’s not” Miss Ellie said “Is he”

“No, one night JR came home early and for some reason we both wanted each other so badly that we ended up making love and that is when I conceived our baby” Sue Ellen said “He has JR’s eyes and his smile”

“Who does JR believe to be the father then?” Ellie asked

Sue Ellen let out a sigh “Cliff Barnes” she said

“Sue Ellen of all the men you had to choose him” Ellie said

“I know but I was so lonely at the time and Cliff was so nice” Sue Ellen said

“Has Cliff seen the baby” Ellie asked

“No, I wont let him” Sue Ellen said “What’s the point, he isn’t the father”

“Sue Ellen there’s only one way to solve this problem” Ellie said

“A Paternity Test” Sue Ellen said “But that scares me”

“Why” Ellie said

“Because if JR finds out the truth, he’ll take the baby of me” Sue Ellen said “Jock has so much influence that I know I’ll lose the baby”

“Sue Ellen I’m not going to let that happen, you’re his mother and he stays with you” Ellie said “But can you go on letting JR hate his own son”

“No” Sue Ellen replied “I want JR to love John Ross”

“Then will you take the test” Ellie asked

Sue Ellen was quiet for a while. She knew that she didn’t really have a choice. For John Ross’ sake the truth needed to come out.

“Yes” she said

“Okay” Ellie said “Let me talk to JR”

After spending a few more minutes with Sue Ellen, Miss Ellie left and returned to JR. Silently they made their way to the car. Once they were inside Miss Ellie turned and looked at her son.

“JR we need to talk” she said
“What about?” JR replied

“Your son” his mother said

JR was silent, he didn’t have a son.

“Sue Ellen has told me everything” Ellie said

“She had no right, so now you know that your grandson is a bastard” JR said

“JR, I never want to hear you call him that again, he’s your son” Ellie said

“I don’t know what she’s told you but he’s not mine” JR said

“JR you only have to look at him to see he’s your son” Ellie said “JR, Sue Ellen wants a Paternity Test to prove it once and for all, will you agree to that”

JR thought a minute, it would make sense but he hated the thought of what his father would think of him when the results came through.

“I don’t know momma” he said

“Okay, think about this, what happens if in ten years time something happens to John Ross and you finally find out that you are the only person who can save him as you’re his father. How will you feel knowing how you’ve mistreated him” Ellie said “We needed to get this sorted out and the sooner the better.”

“Yes m’am” JR said

Sue Ellen’s House (a week later)

Sue Ellen was still feeling tired, she and JR had the Paternity Test and were waiting for the results. She was deep in thought when she heard the doorbell ring. She answered it to find David standing there.

“Can I come in?” He asked

“Yes” she said

“How are you?” he asked

“I’ve been better” she said “Can I make you a drink”

“That would be good” she said

Southfork

Jock decided he had to get out of the house. John Ross was still staying at Southfork while Sue Ellen recuperated and JR had proved he was useless with the child. His grandson’s crying had finally got to him and he saddle his horse and rode into the pastures. He felt the stress of last few months. Suddenly he felt a deep pain in his chest, he caught his breath, however the pain increased, he slowed the horse down and tried to get off but collapsed on the ground.

Sue Ellen’s house

David and Sue Ellen sat on the sofa, neither saying anything.

“I heard about the miscarriage” David said “Who’s was it”

Sue Ellen turned away “JR’s” she said “It was one night after we had gone for a meal together, it meant nothing”

David felt himself becoming angry “How could you” he said

“I made a mistake” she replied

“Sue Ellen, I thought we had a chance” he said “I’ve done everything I can to show you how much I care about you, I will even bring up your son as ours”

“I’m sorry” she said “It was just one night”

“Tell me you don’t love him” David said

“I can’t” Sue Ellen cried

“Then we don’t have a chance” David said

“I’m sorry” she cried

“See you at work, from now on it’s strictly business” he said

Angrily he got up and headed back to his car, slamming the door on the way out. Sue Ellen watched as him drive out. David was fuming, why she couldn’t see how much he loved her. His mind was on her as he drove, not watching the road he failed to see the other car approaching him on the wrong side of the road. Before either driver could do anything they had collided, both cars rolled over on their sides over and over again before resting on their bonnets. Someone called the Paramedics but it was too late, both drivers were dead.

Southfork

Miss Ellie was concerned Jock had been missing for a few hours and it wasn’t like him. She knew that the tension with JR was getting to him. She hadn’t told him about the paternity test so he failed to understand why JR couldn’t handle John Ross. Finally she called Ray and both of them went out together looking for him. They find him laying unconscious by the treehouse. Ray rushed to the house to call the Paramedics. Twenty minutes later ambulances were at Southfork, but it was too late Jock had suffered a massive heart attack; there was nothing that could be done. Jock was dead.